i kept wondering when i’ll find a boyfriend. all my life i’ve been single and thought life was great as it is, but seeing all my friends have their own special persons now i kinda feel lonely and sometimes jealous. why can’t i find one when they could? is it because i’m different? when will it be my time?? >.<
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wishes life is perfect
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razor
Why cant I fall in love
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4815162342
Wondering what could have been is the death of me.
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Fae.rie
I’m tired of caring about the human condition. I’m tired of having morals. I’m tired of feeling guilty for every god damn thing I do. I want to not care that there are people sick and starving everywhere, I want to not care our planet is a mess, I want to be a stupid care free young adult and not give a shit what the world thinks of me. I am sick of feeling like I need to conform to some media projected ideal of beauty, I want to be fat and not care. I am just so sick and tired of everything.
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OneStepAway
Funny, how a year ago we would’ve been standing in the cold together, laughing away the chills and holding on to each other tightly. Funny, how in the morning I happened to see you by sheer chance, and sat to talk to you for a bit. Funny, the way you hugged me tightly, while I blew on your chin this afternoon. Funny how somebody said “You guys are so adorable together,” even though you and I have nothing to do with each other anymore. Funny, the way you told me you loved me still, and that you didn’t want me to leave. Funny that I’m leaving this place because of you, so I can get away from you and start over new. Funny, how I’m still in love with you. Funny, how everyone says you’re not worth it. Funny. Love is funny.
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JadedNikky
I got my heart broken a few weeks ago. It still hurts when he doesnt talk to me or joke around like we used too. It makes me feel alone sometimes. Other times it makes me feel angry. And occasionally, I still feel for him.
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quiteab****
Aw,….Im so sorry…. Would you mind explaining what happened?
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JadedNikky
Well, my friend (lets call him Brady) told me a few weeks ago that the dude I like (lets call him James) told Brady that he likes me. So Brady was like: Do you like him? And I said yes.
So the next day Brady told James that I liked him (they share art class together) and when I got to the class me and James share, James ignored me the whole way through, no matter how many inside jokes I did or anything I did.
So I questioned Brady about it and apparently, James didnt really say he liked me, Brady assumed he did. So I got heartbroken in the end result.
So yea. [/story]
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quiteab****
James is an asshole. Too inmature tbh. Why wouldnt he talk to you over such thing? Im sorry but nothing but an inamture asshole. O bet he sdoesnt deserve you.
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JadedNikky
Haha, thank you. Thats actually the part that hurts me is that he wouldnt talk to me about it. He is pretty immature though and I would love to say I’m over him, but it does resurface ever once in awhile. So I’m just going to ignore him back and find someone else who’s better to go after, you know.
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quiteabitch
I see myself….SO FAT in the mirror. Ive been eating a lot and burning less calories, but I never thought id get THIS FCKIN FAT! ewwwww! still, I see myself so fat Im afraid Im anorexic or something…But I see myself like. HUGE
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All Time Shannon
you are NOT fat.
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Quiet Riot
Okay, from personal observation with friends, I think it’s safe to assume you’re at a healthy weight. A bit of an overstatement but women who obsess over that tend to be in actuality okay, or even worse under. Oh society how you’ve pained us…
So I agree with Shannon, you are NOT fat.
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quiteab****
You havent seen me. Thats why you say I am NOT fat.
Its funny, people say youre not fat but they havent seen you in your to really judge, no offense.
ANd I do agree, WHY LORD WHY? DID SOCIETY HAVE TO BE LIKE THISSS??
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4815162342
I don’t exist in your world.
You’re the only person, other than me, who exists in mine.
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ellie
You can never be sure.
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4815162342
I would not have posted this if I wasn’t sure.
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JadedNikky
Maybe you should make yourself a part of their world then?
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nothing but me
I’m afraid I will get hurt
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quiteabitch
I miss my ex so much. =( STupid stupid stupid! why did you let him go???
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pd0815
lots of people missing exes lately. not me! she was like “mistakes were made, we can work it out”. I was like “dear, it’s not that i can’t trust you anymore, it’s that you can’t trust me anymore”.
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quiteab****
did you..Cheat one her? Or what happened? I left him for many stupid reasons. Stupid stupid me!
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pd0815
I don’t cheat. she was listening to her friends and doing things that weren’t relationship friendly. If the priority of the relationship moves down the list. there’s a problem.
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quiteab****
I did what she did. Yesturday though…I asked him if he still wanted me to go see him in his hometown in the summer he replied: obviously. I mean he still cares, thats something isnt it? I mean he wouldnt make me pay for a ticket just to be like friends righttt?? omg
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Drea
I DON’T WANT TO LIVE ANYMORE.
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nothing but me
Yes, you do
What you have now is not a life. If it was, you woudn’t want to miss a second of it.
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nothing but me
I should get a boyfriend instead of trying to understand quantum physics
Only a few problems:
Guys think I’m ugly because the way I dress
Guys think I’m weird
Guys think I’m crazy
Guys make fun of me
I’m shy
I’m just… different.help! (please)
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All Time Shannon
Guys think I’m weird too
Guys think I’m crazy as well!
Guys make fun of me, they say i have a fat ass
I’m shy (urhhh. same here girl!)
I’m just… different (so be proud)-
nothing but me
I like the way I am but I’m afraid I’ll be alone for all my life
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pd0815
I don’t understand the need for guys to approve of you. maybe it’s a girl thing
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nothing but me
I want someone who likes me the way I am
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pd0815
I agree with you. Everybody wants that but everybody’s not as open minded as we are.
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quiteab****
“You laugh at me for being different, I laugh at you cause youre all the same” I lov ethat saying. Though sometimes, you wish no one had laughed to start with, and that they looked beyond your close or tastes
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4815162342
If it makes you feel any better, I want to find a girl who is weird and different. I can’t stand the average girl who plasters themselves with makeup and wears s***ty clothes daily. I can’t stand the girls that go from guy to guy like they are nothing but a cigarette. Smoke it up, ash it out, on to the next one. I hate that. People like you can appreciate that special someone so much more than the average person can imagine. So keep being you.
So, how does a shy girl find a shy boy? That’s the tricky part..
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ScrewEverything
Its funny people think I’m his booty-call when really, hes mine.
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All Time Shannon
haha! <3
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Drea
i hate myself for missing him.
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nothing but me
Oh shit…
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All Time Shannon
whats wrong?
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nothing but me
I hurted a friend of mine
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All Time Shannon
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All Time Shannon
this is me. :/
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pd0815
um. from your recent post i wasn’t quite expecting someone so lovely.
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All Time Shannon
oh, which post are you talking about? and thank you. for saying im lovely
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pd0815
the post where you said “someone like me”. I was assuming you might have an issue with something about yourself but i personally don’t think you should be having any problems in the boy department.
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All Time Shannon
i dont want what most guys want thats all…
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pd0815
what do most guys want?
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ScrewEverything
You’re really pretty. (:
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All Time Shannon
thank you so much
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nothing but me
I love your smile <3
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All Time Shannon
: D <3 Salome? i love you
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Quiet Riot
You’re an attractive young woman so don’t belittle yourself!
As for what most guys want, I think I know what it is but know that there are still some of us who genuinely appreciate the characteristics and personality of a person. Hopefully you’ll meet these people in the future. =]
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pd0815
I was reading the articles on the 33 year old 6th grade teacher, Amy Beck, having sex with one of her 14 year old students. Reading the comments I was struck by the hypocritical words. Hypocritical because if the teacher was a 33 year old man and the student were a 14 year old female, it would be the end of the world and her life would be in ruins. It’s completely stupid. A girl would be no more hurt than this boy is. What the f*** is up with people condemning men yet condoning women when this shit happens. (not by law of course but by minds of people in general).
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All Time Shannon
i agree
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Quiet Riot
I think it is because the media finds and portrays more men in that situation than women. Of course, it doesn’t make it any less wrong but people will tend to get a skewed perception because of what they’re exposed to. For the most part, people need to delve into knowledge on their own to get the true facts.
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All Time Shannon
Shannon is back.
Shannon is kind of happy.
Shannon loves Marguiz more than she understands,
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Shannon feels lonely without her ex boyfriend.urh- Shannon (duh)
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pd0815
only a new boyfriend will help.
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All Time Shannon
and where do i find one of those? lol its not easy for a girl like me.
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pd0815
what makes it so difficult for you? you seem smart and witty, whimsical and logical. Of course i only see the words you write. I guess you could have a crazy dark side.
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All Time Shannon
i will show you me. i am going to post it.
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true story
things will get easier,
when you break free,
from your barrier,
things will get better,just be yourself,
and let it go,
sing till morning,
go with the flow,because,
you know im with you,
because,
you know i love you,
because,
we’re here for eachother,
because,
we’re together forever,tonight we’re here,
here together,
for eachother,
forever and ever,ill hold you close,
hold you tight,
close to me,
you’ve set me free. -
motivational_poster
it just hurts more than anything to know that shes building something very meaningful with him. instead of me. because hes more right for her than i ever could be.
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All Time Shannon
awh, this is so sad.
And you are more right for another girl, than anyother man. or woman could ever be. just not the woman you are talking about…- Shannon
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JadedNikky 12:43 pm on March 12, 2010 Permalink | Log in to Reply
Even if you are different, you will find that special someone. Remember, those who laugh at the different are laughed at for being the same.
As for getting that person, maybe you should try to find that person in different places. I know quite a few friends who have found people over the internet (though you must always be careful with this). Or maybe you should try to take the inititive andgo out and find that person. Like Lao Tzu had once said, “The journey of a thousand miles begins with one step.”
Quiet Riot 1:37 pm on March 12, 2010 Permalink | Log in to Reply
I think life just loves to give us presents when we’re not expecting them at all. Funny though, that this post is opposite of JadedNikky.
I had a friend who was just set on finding that person, that they went to speed dates, put a profile online, went clubbing, joined clubs at her school… but to no avail.
I would say after two months she stopped all that as I guess she was frustrated. We went to her favorite cafe on poetry night, and she ended up clicking with a guy who had a similar prosody style! Now they’ve been happy together for about a year now, and this is her first boyfriend at the age of 24.
So I think, if you don’t worry yourself too much nor demean yourself, just let your life take course and provide you with the opportunity. =) There’s nothing wrong with waiting if it means you’ll find an amazing person to be with in mind, body, and soul the first time around.