I am a senior in high school. My two bes…
I am a senior in high school. My two best friends are in college and we hadn’t seen each other in two months. I am in love with one friend, and I think the other is into me – but I’m not sure.
In addition to the fact that the friend I am in love with doesn’t like girls, if I ever even tried to find out, I would likely lose both of them.
I thought I had finally gotten over her. We used to be so close; doesn’t it seem stupid that after only two months apart, neither of us would care anymore? So, over those two months, I felt like my feelings had dissipated. I was relieved because I thought I could finally just be friends…like we were anyway.
But then we saw each other again. And I realized that nothing had changed about the way I feel. But everything changed between us. I feel like we forgot how to be around one another.
Her cruel remarks that I used to find endearing were just cruel. Her cold, distant meanness just made me wonder why I couldn’t have at least managed to fall for someone that didn’t make me feel like shit.
Finally just got annoyed and started to push her away, which I’ve never done before.
And when I did, she seemed kind of sad or hurt or something. And she never seemed to care about anything I did either way. So it just made me wonder. And now I wonder if I am reading false messages into it just to believe whatever suits me.