That guy that i thought was so absolutel…
That guy that i thought was so absolutely perfect for me... the one that seemed to be everything I wanted... we're over. We did the long distance thing for almost 2 months before it ended, and everything he promised me wouldn't happen, did. He told me he would do EVERYTHING in his power to make sure it worked between us and that the distance wouldn't change a thing. After telling him I didn't think it was a good idea for us to continue on, he BEGGED me to stick it out. To "trust him on this one." Well, apparently going to school for 4 hours, 5 days a week takes up so much of your time that a ten minute phone call and a couple of texts are "too demanding." I gave him everything, did everything for him. Often with very little thanks or appreciation. I held out in the hopes that things would go back to the way they were in the beginning. Hell,I didn't even want to come back from my sabbatical in Florida because facing this place without him here just didn't make any sense to me. "If you don't come back, my life is over. That's all I'm going to say." Since when did I become that idiot girl that let a boy determine her life decisions? He told me "why can't you just be quiet for the sake of keeping things pleasant?" afteI came to him with a concern. i should have known then that this 20 year old kid was too immature to handle an adult relationship. Granted, I'm only 23 but it's obvious our life experiences and maturity levels are on completely different plains. And yet, knowing that I'm SO much better off without this guy, I love him more than anything and i find it impossible to focus on anything else. We broke up over text message. He refused to call me. Refused to speak in person. I went to his house 2 days ago to pick up something of mine. He handed it to me and walked back inside. He called me 15 minutes later "I'm really sorry I just walked away. I didn't know who was in the car with you and it was awkward. Anyway, it was good seeing you." I blew him off. The next day, an email "Hey, i just wanted to see how you're doing. Hope all is well." Honestly, I know he still loves me. Just days prior he had told me I was everything he ever wanted. And yet talking to me is too much of a hassle? When he told me that, i knew that was it. I broke it off, and when he agreed I was in shock. I gave this guy EVERYTHING and asked for so little and he couldn't even give me that. "I just have too much going on." What's funny, sir, is I've spoken with your roommates and seen your twitter (not to mention I KNOW you) and all you've been doing is going to school and playing WoW. He came down to see me for Valentine's Day and i had to BEG him to get off of WoW. What's funny is ever since he started playing our relationship has gone tragically downhill. Why am I still pining for this immature little boy when I know I have every opportunity to find a man that would be more than happy to give me more than I deserve without the slightest complaint? Honestly, i don't even want him back. I just want him to realize his mistake and want me back so I can walk away.
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pd0815 6:26 am on March 8, 2010 Permalink | Log in to Reply
Ok. this guy isn’t the one with the problem. you are. I know WoW players. I’m one myself. one relationship ended because of it but the answer is to find a girl who absolutely doesn’t mind it or plays it herself. First I found a girl ingame and we had a long distance thing going on. then I found a local girl that plays it and we play together. I’m really sick of people blaming the fucking game for their problems. Yea it can be consuming but so can relationships.