Mum, dad I’m sorry for ruining your lif…
Mum, dad
I’m sorry for ruining your life. I know it was your mistake. I know you love me. But I just can’t forgive myself. I may be the best mistake you ever made but I’m still a mistake! My mother didn’t feel that joy when she saw me, her “fresh sausage” for the first time.
I wonder how your lives would be if I was never been born. You wouldn’t have married, just to please my grandparents.
Now I’m trapped in this thing called life. Everything I do, everything I don’t do ends up hurting somebody, or myself. I can’t even die without causing pain.
I’m sorry.
I’m sorry.
I’m so fuckin sorry!
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yellowroses 6:10 pm on April 18, 2010 Permalink | Log in to Reply
you might technically be a mistake, but they probably don’t see you like that & you probably shouldn’t either. as long as you’re here, you probably have something to contribute even if you don’t know it. you may have changed their lifes, but they probably don’t mind it.
All Time Shannon 10:53 am on April 19, 2010 Permalink | Log in to Reply
‘probably’ is not a good enough word.
Hey i was a mistake too, but i think, well i try to tell myself that, im not a mistake, just, a suprise. because thats what i like to do, suprise people. Try and turn all your bad situations into good ones, just like i did there. Talk to me babe, x
- Shannon
nothing but me 1:01 pm on April 19, 2010 Permalink | Log in to Reply
I know I shouldn’t… Unfortunately i’m like my father: predictable and quiet. Cold. Expressing my feelings is a foreign language to me. I feel useless.