I’m bisexual. I keep telling myself tha…
I’m bisexual. I keep telling myself that nobody will care, but I’m too afraid to tell anybody. My family and my friends will just judge me; they’ll think of me differently. It’s been haunting me since I started college last semester. I’ve sat around doing nothing just thinking about it. My grades are terrible, my friends don’t call me anymore, and my brother keeps asking me what is wrong. But I can’t tell them now. Not yet.
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ScrewEverything 4:29 pm on April 25, 2010 Permalink | Log in to Reply
I know what your going through, somewhat, at least. It does suck. :l
You could always do what I did.
Start out by telling someone else whos into the same sex, someone you can trust.
That way you have someone to talk to about things and once your ready start telling your close friends.
CurrerBell 12:58 am on April 26, 2010 Permalink | Log in to Reply
You know, some people might say, “Oh, it’s no big deal. It’s just ONE part of you. It doesn’t define your entire being” but it’s hard not to think about it all the time, isn’t it? It’s hard because you know it’s the one part of you that might mean you’ll be liked less, loved less, for who you are. I sometimes start to hate myself because I know my parents will hate me for it, or my friends will see me differently.
I hope you know there’s no pressure to tell anyone yet. You can tell someone once you feel and know that you’re ready. That might be next week, next month, next year, who knows.
Does your college have a LGBT support group? It’s generally an anonymous place and it might help make you feel a bit less afraid.
noworries 10:06 am on April 26, 2010 Permalink | Log in to Reply
Thanks for the kind words.
My college has a very large percentage of LGBT people attending; in fact, the city it is in has a reputation for it. But I’m not a very social person. I have a tendency to have panic attacks when too much attention is drawn to me, so I tend to avoid group things. That’s why I feel like I can’t really tell anyone because I have this nagging feeling that I’ll suddenly break down one day. I’m an incredibly emotionally unstable person. And I know that my few male friends are going to get distant, because that’s how they were with another of my close friends that came out.