I don’t ever want to eat again. If it m…
I don’t ever want to eat again. If it makes you like me I never will. Even it it’s really pity, or guilt, I don’t care. Anything to make you realize.
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CrimsonTears 12:48 pm on May 9, 2010 Permalink | Log in to Reply
“What you think means more than anything else in your life. More than what you earn, more than where you live, more than your social position, and more than what anyone else may think about you” As someone who has suffered from her eating disorder for almost 12 years to the day (ironically, almost half my life to the day also), you need to live your life for you. People will come and go from your life, more often than not, leaving huge scars that will only fade in time. If turning to an eating disorder to be accepted by someone else is the only reason they’ll like you, they are worthless scum. You are worth so much more than conditional love. Love isn’t earned by being skinny, love comes for being who you are, and being that person amazingly! I have been working years to get out of the mindset that love is conditional and that my body is something that I can use and abuse in hopes of finding love and acceptance. I don’t want to see anyone go down this road for the false love of another person. Surround yourself with people who love YOU, not some false contorted image of who you could look like if sick. Love is for who you are inside, and an eating disorder is nothing to love.
Patent Medicine 5:47 pm on May 9, 2010 Permalink | Log in to Reply
It’s not an eating disorder, borderline personality disorder.
I get everything you’re saying though, thank you.
CrimsonTears 6:45 pm on May 9, 2010 Permalink | Log in to Reply
ok, the “not eating ever again” part made me worry and another post you made hinted at a developing ED. Just know that those who can’t love the real you aren’t worth the joy of knowing you. If they can’t love you for who you are, every single day, then, they don’t deserve to see the awesome, fun, beautiful person that you are.