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I broke up with him via text. I am such a douche. I told him I was serious, when really I was half-serious, mainly curious about how he’d react. I knew I’d back track regardless of what he’d say though. We’ve been together for just over 6 months… there’s no way he’d actually think that I wanted […]
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Continue reading Foolish heart I reeeeeeally like him, even though I know at some point, I’m going to have to break up with him. Or him break up with me. Either way. It’s not because we’re toxic for each other. In that respect, it’s fine, it’s great. I leave him to his own devices when we go out, I […]
Continue reading I reeeeeeally like him even though I know… I am so happy. These past few weeks have been just - wow. Seriously. It’s amazing how much can change in just a couple of months. It’s even more amazing to think how far you’ve come in one year. I guess life has a funny way of turning things bright, right when you least expect it to!
Continue reading I am so happy. These past few weeks have… Facebook, for many reasons, is just shit. In particular, I canNOT stand it when people ‘subtle-y’ post statuses which are about you. It’s one thing if they’re saying something nice or you’re making them happy and so you KNOW the reason that their status is in reference to you because you might have been the contribution to […]
Continue reading Facebook, for many reasons, is just shit… When left to my own devices, my thoughts can be pretty potent. I can’t believe I’ve actually met someone who could potentially make me happy and here I am already doubting whether it’ll work out because we won’t have enough time for each other. I think I’m afraid that I’ll get my priorities muddled up and put […]
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It’s completely alright to doubt or be afraid. I guess it means you’re thinking things through seriously instead of just jumping in there and giving it a whirl, you know? And as you’ve said, he’s worth every shot. He’s worth getting a little anxious over, he’s worth your time and thoughts. It’s good.
Glad you’ve found this potential someone!
I suppose you’re right.
I think I’m just afraid things aren’t going to work out between us, as in, it won’t go much further than this. In saying that, thinking about these things f-ing up isn’t helping the cause.
It’ll figure itself out, but thanks for your advice and it’s good to see you on here (: Hope you’re well!
Well, I haven’t felt like this for a long while! How refreshing : D
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*HI5*
In all honesty, I think it’s easier to just stay single.
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I’ve been happy being single, and being in a relationship. There are definately benefits to both, theres less chance to get hurt when your alone, but its also harder to be happy. Long run? I can’t say whats better. Go with the flow, whatever state your in just learn to enjoy it to the fullest, no chance of regret there 
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I know, I’ve experienced the best and worst of both worlds, too.
But being single you don’t run the risk of get by someone you let your guard down with.
I just really dislike that feeling when you meet someone new and you don’t really know how you feel about them, even though they’re great, but the butterflies are pretty much non-existent. Do you pursue it or do you just leave it be and keep it as friends? Generally speaking, I don’t like hurting others because of the choices I make.
That’s why it’s easier to just stay single; no one gets hurt.
You meet them better… I think you still should try being friends and then meeting them well, see if you find the tingle you speak about. =)
But shouldn’t you get that butterfly tingle when you first meet them? It’s been a long time since I felt them and I haven’t been in a relationship which actually became of something without that feeling. Taking it slow as friends is always the safest bet, anyway.
Youre right. Being friends is the best choice if you don’t feel anything. Still, remember that there is always a possibility.
At first I was angry. Angry because I finally realised You had relayed your thoughts and feelings to me while being aware of the way I felt about You. But… then I thought that maybe You did it on purpose… because, sometimes, we have to hurt the ones we care about in order for them to […]
Continue reading At first I was angry. Angry because I fi… Is there some way to delete confessions/posts? There is nothing on the dashboard.
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I think there used to be a way… But not anymore since about like 7 months.
Oh, that’s a shame - I wish I could, I really want to clear my past off the internet, now.
Something always reminds me to come back to this site after months and months of not logging on or reading and writing confessions. One of the main things that brings me back here are my old confessions. It reminds me of how far I’ve come and how wrong I was. I’m happy now. I’m content. I’m not torturing myself over […]
Continue reading Something always reminds me to come back… It’s been quite a while since I’ve been on here. Almost so long, in fact, that the majority of people who confess are people I don’t really recognise. I stopped coming on the site because I was happy, I got into that course when I thought I wasn’t accepted in, I got back with my infamous ex […]
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ok. so he used you for a little while. it happens to all of us. I know you think it was genuine but the circumstances suggest otherwise. I don’t understand why it takes so long for people to get over the fucking assholes in life. it’s ridiculous to me. I suggest just moving on and finding important and attractive things in the other people in your life. .. assuming he didn’t isolate you and make you dump your family and friends like most jerks do. good luck.
Thanks for your comment.
But, I didn’t ask for your opinion.
However, I’m compelled to give you a piece of my mind, pd0815, just because you did.
I really don’t know why I didn’t confess on the original Group Hug site, to be honest, though it’s too late now.
Regardless that he and i aren’t compatible, that doesn’t give me or anyone else the authority to label someone you don’t even know (or, in my case, someone I became very close to), as an Asshole.
I’m hurt because he is missing in my life, and not because of what happened. I accept the fact that it is over, we will never be together, and can’t anyway.
I expressed that for all that has happened, after all he and I went through together, I will always love him. In this point in time, I just feel a little down, my support system is fucked, and I guess I am just trying to adapt and am going through a bad spell.
I live my life, I’m not cooped up at home, sitting, waiting, and wishing, I know I will meet someone else, and I know I will fall in love again (I said this already, so I shouldn’t have to repeat myself, if you read the confession.)
I am over the relationship, I don’t need him, I just want his friendship.
I love him because that’s just the way it is. It can’t be changed and there’s nothing to get over.
“so he used you for a little while. it happens to all of us. I know you think it was genuine but the circumstances suggest otherwise”
I don’t know where I state or allude anything about feeling, or having been used.
And, I agree, it can’t have been real or strong enough if it didn’t last, but sometimes, people aren’t good for eachother, that doesn’t mean it wasn’t genuine. That’s just life.
Like you said, though in the wrong context, as you’re referring to being used, shit happens to all of us. I agree and, I said that already, if you choose to read more carefully.
I don’t appreciate my feelings being undermined, especially when I’m not feeling the happiest. I came to write on here to escape these thoughts from my own mind. I hope that’s okay.
I’d like to take what you said in stride, because for all it’s worth, you ignited another feeling other than hurt and upset.
You won’t read this anyway, and if you do, I doubt you’ll reply, so, thanks for wishing me luck in my happiness.
Right back at you.
Daniela
It’s easy to assume that they may have moved on, especially when you’re not abreast of a person’s private circumstances. However they may also harbour similar feelings too and merely recognise the need for some mutual exclusivity.
In any event, you agreed to be friends, you share(d) some strong mutual feelings, and if you genuinely needed him to be there, I’m sure he would always oblige.
He’s quick to move on, he’s not hurting, believe me.
I don’t know if he would be so obliging as to remain friends. I can assure you he doesn’t even remember that promise, and if he did, I can’t be sure if he would care that he broke it. My gut feeling tells me he’s met someone else.
I don’t think I mean as much to him as he does to me.
Thanks for your advice, snugglepuff, i really appreciate it.
Yes, but if you were so in love, the way you have described, I doubt he’d be so erroneous with his promises. Two months of silence (which was mutual) is by no means a life time when it comes to the end of long term relationships. That can in fact be a necessity rather than a choice so he may yet deliver.
As for gut feelings, I’m sure there are times when you’ve been right, and times where you’ve been wrong (quite possibly in regard to this very relationship). Powerful they may be, they can also be a manifestation of thinking not in line with reason or logic and ought not be uncoditionally relied on. I’m not saying thats what you’re doing, just to be careful about what role gut feelings play in what you think of him, or what he’s doing/thinking
I didn’t get the impression that he used you at all. I can relate to your post completely. Same thing, it was like he disappeared off the planet after assuring me he would always be there and wanted to remain close. I never got a clear explanation, because I don’t know that there is one. I think he knew better than I that sometimes you need to cut off ties for a while and let yourself heal. This was over two years ago for me and our friendship was never the same. He still keeps in touch with me, though, so I know it meant something. I’ve finally accepted that I’m always going to want and love him, so I try not to answer him. (See? Sometimes it’s just the best thing that we can do for ourselves.)
But it sounds like you are handling your situation very well through the hurt you’re feeling. I almost feel like I don’t need to wish you luck because it seems like you’re going to be just fine. I’ll send you a hug and *happy vibes* though, I hope things work out for you
I have a feeling (because that is all i have to rely on) that he thought I’d fall for him or want to get back with him, if we remained in contact. One of the last things he said to me was ”are you sure you’re over it?” or words to that effect. Harsh though they may be, he knew me well. He knew that may have happened. We agreed not to go back and forth breaking up and getting back together.
So perhaps for my sake, he cut ties? That’s nice, I suppose.
I doubt very much that he would be doing it for his sake.
It’s terrible though, when a week before it ended (we agreed to wait a week, as a cooling off period, to see if that’s what was best) he told me he loved me.
I’ve realised that I need to get out of this rut, because its attacking my life at the moment.
I’m completely snowed under with study, and due dates are coming up.
I just wish sometimes I could remove past memories from my mind and just keep them safe in a box somewhere.
I agree with you, though, I think sometimes it’s best to keep distance.
Thanks for your advice, and shedding light on your own situation. I hope you’re okay, and also, that things have worked out for you, too.
All the best,
Daniela
Hey,
Don’t know if you remember me. I’m the one who lives in the same hemisphere as you. As creepy as this may sound, I had wondered if you were going okay. Congratulations about getting into that course, by the way.
I don’t have any advice to give you regarding your situation - partly due to my having never been in a similar one and partly due to it being really, really late for my brain to function - all I can really offer is a hug. Well, an e-hug.
If you were that intimate and that special to him, could he really, truly forget you? Of course, I can’t assume anything about him, but you know, it’s hard to just forget someone like that. You might not talk or see each other anymore, but that place in his heart, regardless of how small it may be, it still has you and the memory of you in there. That’s what I’d imagine anyway.
Anyway, just thought I’d say hi. You probably won’t read this because it’s so far back, but whatever.
Last night, or early this morning rather, while flicking through the music channels on TV, Leona Lewis’s ‘Bleeding Love’ started - And for the first time after listening to that song countless times, I finally realised what it was all about. The only reason why I understood the lyrics now, is because I can completely relate to them.
Continue reading Last night, or early this morning rather… On New Years day, one of the first texts I received to wish me a happy New Year was from Him. And in that moment,I cried because I realised a few things. The first thing that I realised was that I was so vulnerable to his contact, no matter how kind or how hurtful. The fact […]
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This! This exactly mirrors how I feel about my own ‘him.’ Only I am still in denial over the third thing. It’s really hard to get that third point through.
Cheers to you for realizing all of those things and taking initiative to fully move on. I hope it works well for you, and I’m sure you will find better!
I hope so, too chemistry.
And realising is a lot different to accepting. I still live in this warped hope that he will read this letter and suddenly know that he cannot be without me and call me or come to see me, and confess his love for me, or something.
In reality though, that won’t happen. Sometimes, I wonder if he’s the guy for me. Sometimes I think he isn’t, but I’m afraid I’ve lost that chance and will never find out.
Heres to learning to deal with Realisation 3, Chemistry. All the best to you. We’ll get over it eventually.
Again, I know exactly what you mean! It’s like a whole civil war in my brain with one side saying there’s hope and the other side saying ‘forget about it.’ It’s so sldkfjdsldkjf.
Anyway, yeah, I hope we all can achieve Realization 3 this year. Good luck! We’ll get through.
Chemistry,
Do you think we would be able to help eachother?
I really love to help people in depth, but I almost always know I need assistance and advice myself.
I try to give my best advice to anyone, if I can, and I’d like to get through Realisation 3 with you. Unless of course, you don’t want to. It really depends on the individual.
What do you say?
Heres my email: dano0la@yahoo.co.uk
If you choose not to take up my proposal, I’ll see you around here, and assist you in any way I can.
Cheers to a good year.
You’re so kind! My email that I made for group hug is: lovesofragile@gmail.com
Feel free to e-mail me, or I will contact you.
Thanks!
I know I have confessed on this site about the same thing, over and over and over, but I just don’t get why he deserves all this happiness when he is the one that has caused me so much pain. Why is it that he’s the one that dumped me, but has easily gotten accepted into […]
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why would you wish for someone to be miserable? just because you are… thats ridiculous, and it sucks that you are, but on some level happiness is a choice, and as long as youre hating HIS happiness, its going to be hard for you to be happy. and for the record, its not Gods fault youre not happy…thats your fault.
o, and by the way, lifes not fair. everyone has the right to be happy, and YOU dont have the right to wish otherwise on them, no matter what they did to you.
I agree. You can’t have any hope of happiness if you hold on to all of your hatred and resentment. It is only hurting you, and I know that’s a hard thing to accept when you feel as though you have righteous anger because you were wronged. Clearly, he’s moved on, and so should you. Invest time in yourself, your appearance, your health, your friends, your family, your interests and improve the things in your life you DO have control over. You can’t control the world and it’s indifferent to your pain. You are the only thing you have absolute control over in this world. Most people take a life time to learn this, or never do. I’m trying so, so hard to practice it. But it’s one of the most important things to accept so that you can move on to contentment and lasting happiness.
I guess I wanted to feel sorry for myself.
I feel a little ashamed after looking back on it, it is not usually my type of thing to say, to be honest.
I’ve told him I am happy for him, and sincerely, I am. But there is this little pang inside of me that thinks *He hurt me and he doesn’t care, and now he has got it all* I’ve done the same thing as him. I’ve moved on, or tried to, I am trying all the things he has, blocking him out, getting on with my life, being happy, finding things to do, focusing my energy on other projects, all of that. But then he’ll come back into my life and I break down all over again. Then he disappears like he wasn’t even there, and I’m expected to bounce back like nothing ever happened.
Technikolordream, I see your point, though, I hardly see why you should be so harsh about it. Him dumping me is not my fault and, about God? Well, I’ve always prayed and believed, but right now, I can’t. And I am angry. Angry at how everything was good, and in the space of 3 months, I have nothing to look forward to. Saying F*** you wasn’t the best idea, but it was said, and I’m not going to take it back.
Life isn’t fair, I know that. I’ve always known that. But I’m sure that you, like me, have felt something similar - or something worse, I wouldn’t know - at some point in your life, and have behaved like a little spoilt child over their situation, and have carried on a little. Even if it weren’t aloud. Even if it were for a millisecond. I’m sure you have felt the way I felt when I wrote the confession.
I am not a vindictive person, and I want him to be happy because he has had some misfortunes in his life too, but I don’t ever recall saying that I wished him to be miserable, though. He doesn’t know the hurt he’s caused me, and frankly, he doesn’t care.
If you think I have curled up in a ball and haven’t moved or haven’t socialised or lived my life, you are very wrong indeed.
The one time I want to feel a little sorry for myself and I am chastised for it? Personally, you don’t know the situation, so how can you comment?
I want to thank you for your advice anyway, it was of some value, as it did open my eyes to my self-pitying confession.
Ditto to you, CellarDoor13.
Blahblah, I know everyone’s saying you’re holding resentment and being selfish or whatever, but I understand how you feel. And I’ve seen your other posts and comments, and I know you’re definitely not a bad person. It sucks being the one left behind, especially when you’re the one who tried to be the good one, and he’s the one who did something to hurt you and got off the hook, scott-free. There’s so much I could say to this, saying how much I relate, but I don’t want to go off into a tangent. Haha.
He’ll get his karma. And well, you’ll figure you’re way out, I’m sure! The best revenge, they say, is to live the best life possible. (Then he’ll be all “Damn, why’d I dump her?”)
Chemistry, they did have a point. The former commenter just happened to be terrible at expressing themselves. That, or they have been the person that has dumped past relations, and therefore needed to get their back up. We’ll never know.
Anyway, I’d just like to say thanks. Thanks for your understanding words, it means alot, because for a moment there, I felt that I was the only one who felt the way I felt, and that I was wrong in doing so.
I’m glad you get me.
p.s. I think he’s already gone through the motions of ‘why’d I dump her?’, so, it’s done, and it is far too late for any kind of karma. All there is to do is to miss him until I forget about him.
The problem lies within the fact that we are to supposedly remain friends.
All the best for the new year (:
I’d really like someone to help me figure this person out: In short: he’s my ex.He broke up with me three months ago. He now likes someone new. He says he wants to be my friend no matter what. Though, for quite some weeks, we didn’t speak. He was or could still be, driving past my […]
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Sounds like he’s Bipolar.
It is mixed messages, then?
I would think so.
WHY.
Why in the world would you?!?!?!
Why would I think that? He’s trying to be nice and failing at it, my advice is to just not care.
I meant why would someone send mixed messages if they do not care?
Thanks, though.
Sounds a lot like my situation, except she doesnt wanna try being friends which tears at me almost as much as the fact that she found someone new. I took the destroy everything that could be mended and make her feel the pain I feel route and it’s hurting me so much.
If you really love him, wait it out and see what happens. I’m an avid believer of not just giving up.
If you think you can move on, get the hell out, it will only destroy you and if you mend it you will always wonder if its still not fixed. If he wants it back he’ll contact you…
I should follow my own advice
The thing I would really like to do, is to speak with someone who knows exactly how I am feeling. I think that could be you:
Please don’t hesitate to contact me, it would mean a lot if you did. I’m happy to remain anonymous, or whatever.
Hope you had a merry christmas.
I feel like I have nothing. Absolutely nothing. There is a very very very high chance of not getting into the course that I really want. If youre accepted, you receive a letter, if you aren’t, you get nothing. I haven’t received a letter, others have. I am so crushed. I wanted this so badly.. […]
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Not exactly sure if it’s the same case with your institution, AsKnownAs, but for uni, there are various ways of getting into the course you want apart from the main method. Perhaps there are alternative pathways into your course too.
You might be surprised at how many people get into tertiary institutions without the initial criteria. They either work and come back later, try another course and apply again the next year or, well, there are other ways that I can’t think of at this hour. I have a fair amount of friends now who didn’t get sufficient marks for what they’d wanted to do back then but are now studying and applying again. Sure, they’d end up getting into their course a year or two later but in the end, they’re in it, and that’s the most important thing.
All this said, I do sincerely hope you’ll get a letter. You’ve worked hard for it, you deserve it. It sounds insensitive for me to say this because you’re upset, but if you don’t make it, it’s OK. Call them up, ask them what options you have. It’s not the end of the road, even though it does feel like it is. You have high school to back you up. Surely there are other ways of getting in this course, or a similar one, even if it is at another institution, y’know?
Wait, I’m sorry. I’ve probably muddled this (way too long) response up and made it seem confusing, blunt and insincere. It’s not my intention (but it is 1:30AM). My point is this: If you get in, congratulations! If you don’t, you’re not left with nothing, and it’s not all gone to waste.
Currerbell -
I’m the girl from Sydney, who applied for the Tafe course, if you remember. Either way, that isn’t important. But thank you for your advice.
I know what you mean, there are other colleges, there are other places and even UTS has a course that is more advanced than the Tafe one (Tafe being Adv. Dip. and UTS having a Bachelor in Design, majoring in Interior Design). The thing is, I don’t have a UAI. I didn’t apply in year 12, because I was a fool. I want to go to Tafe because it is an extremely excellent place for what I want to study, and apart from that, its isnt that expensive. Its more recognised than the UTS course etc. There are ways around not getting in, like, for example, there might be some new places in 2010, if people drop out. I just really wanted to study next year. I was so pumped for this, I really was. And now, I dunno, I feel like I have nothing because everything was so orderly in my mind: the time I would be there, and when I would go to England for a summer school program thing, to the time that I would move there and then to continue on to Uni when I got back. Everything was ready to go. I knew it would all go down the drain if I didn’t get accepted in. And tomorrow morning, before I start work, I am going to call up and find out if I’ve been accepted or not, because I need to be put out of my misery.
Part of me thinks I’m being a fool, the other part thinks I am so right about not getting in. I guess I’ll know in a few short hours.
Thanks for taking the time to read this, thanks for giving me advice, and no, what you said wasn’t confusing, muddled up or insincere in any way.
Means a lot that someone bothered!
Yes, I remembered where you applied. I just wasn’t sure if it was OK for me to have disclosed where you were from in my reply, with this being Group Hug and all. Anyway, did you end up calling them? How did you go? Here’s to hoping you got in!
Personally, like you, I too had myself all planned out. What I was going to do, where I was going to do it, how long it was going to take and where I wanted to go on exchange.
In the end I didn’t make the cut. So there went the four years I intended to get out in, there went Europe for exchange. I was upset but decided to do the next best thing and get into another course. Two years down, things have changed - the course I’d gotten upset over isn’t the one I want anymore, four years isn’t nearly enough for me to feel competent, and I now want to do another (unrelated) discipline in addition to what I’m currently doing. You have no idea how many people end up dropping out of tertiary studies or transferring to something else. Sure, not knowing about the future is scary, but it could very well give you space to have a breather and re-think your options. Things you never thought you’d be interested in otherwise could come up. Of course, that probably isn’t something what you’d want to be thinking of right now.
That said, this entire post is irrelevant if you got in, which I do hope you did!
Hi Currerbell, I don’t know if you will read this, you may have forgotten about it, or something (:
But no, i didn’t get in. I called up this morning, and balled my eyes out all day, which was really difficult seeing as I was working the whole time, too.
I feel splattered all over the walls. I’ve got nothing ahead of me. Nothing planned, nothing to look forward to. I received a letter today telling me that I was on ‘Standby’, not ‘Unsuccessful’ , which means I stand a 1 in 50 chance of getting in, if someone rejects their position. The likelihood of that is very slim, so I am not vouching on that in any way.
Its scary, not knowing what to do next, but after hours and hours of speaking with my sibling, I think I have come to that realisation that I have a blank canvas stretched out in front of me, and its time I begin to paint my future, free-hand, and without some sort of guideline before it. I don’t work that way, ever, but I think it’s time I learn how to be flexible with life, because it will never be flexible with what I want.
I am quite deterred in becoming an interior designer for the moment, so maybe I’ll take a couple of months’ break from it and focus on myself.
I think what made things worse, was that since my ex dumped me, I was so focused on getting this, I so dearly wanted to study at Enmore, I’d wanted this more than what I thought to be honest, and now that I don’t have this, I have to watch him move on with this new girl, and with him begninning study. He’s ahead in life, which I am happy for, but this time last year, he was in a similar position to that of which I am currently in, and I was by his side, supporting him and whatnot. I don’t have that support from him, or that love or whatever, and so that, and missing comfort from someone I loved, and losing out on possibly one of the most potentially greatest experiences of my life, all rolled into one big ball, caused this onset of tears and absolute gutted hurt.
Plus, he sent me a christmas gift, which I received today, which was a buch of drawing equipment and a sketch pad, namely because I love drawing, and I just burst into tears again.
I’m okay now though, and I’m prepared to take whatever comes my way, head on. And who knows? Maybe I’ll go to England this coming year.
I don’t know what I am going to do about studying, I might apply at Tafe again.
I’ll let the flow of brush strokes crafted by my own subconscious lead me to whatever.
For now though, I want to wish you a merry christmas and a fantastic new year.
I will leave my email here, in case you would ever like to talk, though, only, and I mean only, anonomously;
All the best, and thanks for your time!
The unknown is worse than rejection.
I couldn’t agree with you more. But I was patient, I was kind of expecting to get in, but didn’t and apart from that, I was terribly afraid.
Rejection is my worst kind of fear. My weakness, you might say.
I know now, I know that I’m not going to my desired place of study, so it’s time to let go and look for other opportunities.
My Grandmother has Dementia/Alzheimer’s disease. At one stage, it plateaued. Now it’s excelled, at an alarming rate, downhill. She doesn’t know who I am anymore. She doesn’t even know what Christmas is. I can’t believe I’m no longer in her memory.
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Oh, dear. I’m very sorry to hear this and I can’t imagine how difficult it would be for your grandmother, family or yourself, so I’m sure I’m not the best person to provide any advice at all.
I once worked in a hospital and met a woman with advanced Alzheimer’s. Even though I wasn’t related to her, it was sad to see her forget her husband or mistake me for her daughter. Her husband told me that each day, he’d try to remember back to when his wife was better, healthier. He’d remember the special moments they had shared and what she’d taught him. He said it helped remind him that even though she didn’t remember who he was, she was - essentially - still the same woman he’d married and spent his life with. Even though she was getting sicker, more forgetful by the day, remembering who she was made him feel better because he knew she would always be a part of him, and she helped make him the person he was today. He tried to make each day count with her, and make her feel special that very day, even though she’d probably forget it the next.
Perhaps you could try doing the same, and give your grandmother hugs too, y’know? But also, you need hugs too yourself.
Yeah, thanks Currerbell.
Sometimes hearing other similar stories, makes the one you’re in seem a little less scary. Its obviously not just me that is suffering, she is too, and my mum and the rest of my family are, too.
I gave her a hug and told her that I loved her, and she smiled with her teeth and said it back.
Its little glimmers like that, that make me feel like there might be the tiniest bit of hope that she won’t forget us completely.
I know how you feel. It’s a very sad feeling 
It hurts a lot.
And there is nothing that can be done.
There’s a language barrier because I can’t speak fluently in Italian, either.
I just hope to God that she gets a little better, because that’s all I can do, apart from giving her a little TLC.
All I think about these days is just studying for the next three years, going to Oxford Uni Summer School and living in England for 6 months or so. All that, is what is keeping me going at the moment. And unfortunately, all of the above aren’t even 100% sure. I don’t know if I’ve been accepted […]
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Daniela,
I never really thought planning my life was a good way to go,
my sister has, and then theres always the question of what to do if it doesnt work out the way you want it to.
What you should do is, either, make a plan B. so then theres always that second option if what you really want, doesnt work out.
Or,
Forget all of your plans, because really, what you want to happen in the future could all change in one moment, and what would you do then?
I say, live your life, day by day..
But that doesnt mean you shouldnt have ambitions, like going to Oxford uni, and living in london, thats great.
But thats not all thats there in life, it might seem like it now, but you have to make the memories, Make happiness. You have to find it, its not going to come looking for you.
- Shannon,x
I’m prepared for things to not go the way I’d like them to, but I’m just so afraid that the things I desire in my life, won’t ever eventuate.
I’m afraid that something will come up, or that I’ll become lazy, or that I will meet someone. I don’t want a relationship for a long time, because I have so much more that I want to do. Relationships require focus, and for once, I want to focus on ME. Not an ‘Us’, or a ‘Him’.
I intend to live my life day by day, but I’ve always hated not knowing what the future holds for some unexplainable reason, and so ‘planning’ or having a brief outline of what I intend to do for the next 3-5 years allows for me to have some control over my life and, well, my future, in a sense.
I just have to try and remember not to become so entranced with my possible-according-to-plan future, that I’ll forget to live life presently.
Thanks for the advice Shannon, it might not have seemed like I have changed my outlook in the slightest, but you have certainly opened my eyes to the fact that I also have to live for Now. I appreciate that (:
Daniela
Your welcome.
I know a lot of people who feel like you do,
and i know what you mean when you say you want to just focus on you.
It will all work out for you Daniela, im sure of it babe 
- Shannon
Same to you, Shannon.
You’re still young. As soon as you finish school, it’s like there is finally an opportunity to spread your wings and take on the world! You have that potential, I know you do. You’ve got a very bold personality, and that’s a great thing (:
Thanks and all the best,
D
You want to be my friend, then you don’t bother to contact me. What is with you?! What’s worse, is that now you have someone after you - and it’s really sad because you used to be mine. The good thing is though, is that seeing her flirty-trying-to-be-friendly message to you on Facebook didn’t nearly hurt […]
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): Sorry to hear he’s still being a dick. Glad to hear you’re getting over him a bit though! Keep strong, Daniela. I’m pulling for you.
quiteabitch 8:43 pm on February 19, 2011 Permalink | Log in to Reply
Im really glad =) I hope it keeps going like that for you! =)
AsKnownAs. 3:21 am on February 22, 2011 Permalink | Log in to Reply
Likewise (: