Just woke up. Had another dream about you. I feel weird; it’s been weeks since we’ve talked. And I send a message every few days to see if we can talk again, but I don’t see any reply. In my last text, I told you that I wouldn’t be sending you any more until I […]
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I can’t even convince myself that it’s okay that I messed up yet another expensive semester of college. Because of it, I’m on probation, which is probably a sign that I’m not cut out for college. I don’t have any life goals; I don’t know what I want to be when I’m older, and I […]
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I feel so uninspired lately. I’ve hit a snag in my writing and music composition, and at the worst time, too. I have a ten page paper due tomorrow that I’ve only just started on. I just can’t think anymore. It’s hard to create at this time in my life. Is something overpowering me? Maybe […]
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raven
i feel like i have been stuck in this limbo for years. with only brief glimpses of freedom. ostensibly we stand in our own way! perhaps due to fear of failure…?? better to not try at all, then to try and then fail. i think that’s my problem anyway… if writing is your passion, you will get there! just have faith in yourself, change your routine, habits, thinking space and surroundings… hopefully something will come!
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pd0815
get used to it. I find myself in those lulls too. so often in fact that I have noticed something that marks the beginning or the “peak” for my inspiration periods. It’s 222, the number. I used to see it around and wonder why the fuck i keep seeing that number. I saw it recently. It was the house number involved in a murder. So.. I know I’m coming into my inspiration period.
You can overcome these down times in inspiration by writing all the time and keeping a notebook. I do this with my lyrics and Ideas before I get the chance to record them. I have a thick book now of inspiration.
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You’re asking me if I’m happy with myself. I’m not. You want me to think about it? I have been for the past year. You’re my big brother. Why do you constantly make me feel awful? I’m always to blame for everything. And you’re reliving yourself through me. I don’t feel like it’s my life […]
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I undertand and I can relate so much to myself. I keep fighting with everyone in my family specially my brother, however, these last days hes becomed nicer since he broke up with his gf. What your brother is doing though, is because hes worried about you and he loves you. I know it’s irritating and sometimes it can really piss you off, but you just try to understand that, and also tell him how you feel, tell him to be confident in you and that you will sure have a great future and that anytime you need help or advice you know you can count on him, but he doesnt have to do what he’s doing other than stress you out and make you angry. As for wanting to get away… It’s something you cant really change unless you are old enough. IM 13 and what I used to do was go on my bike and put my music as loud as I could and I felt like I could escape for a few hours from everything. Stay strong, it wont last long.
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I’m bisexual. I keep telling myself that nobody will care, but I’m too afraid to tell anybody. My family and my friends will just judge me; they’ll think of me differently. It’s been haunting me since I started college last semester. I’ve sat around doing nothing just thinking about it. My grades are terrible, my […]
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ScrewEverything
I know what your going through, somewhat, at least. It does suck. :l
You could always do what I did.
Start out by telling someone else whos into the same sex, someone you can trust.
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CurrerBell
You know, some people might say, “Oh, it’s no big deal. It’s just ONE part of you. It doesn’t define your entire being” but it’s hard not to think about it all the time, isn’t it? It’s hard because you know it’s the one part of you that might mean you’ll be liked less, loved less, for who you are. I sometimes start to hate myself because I know my parents will hate me for it, or my friends will see me differently.
I hope you know there’s no pressure to tell anyone yet. You can tell someone once you feel and know that you’re ready. That might be next week, next month, next year, who knows.
Does your college have a LGBT support group? It’s generally an anonymous place and it might help make you feel a bit less afraid.
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noworries
Thanks for the kind words.
My college has a very large percentage of LGBT people attending; in fact, the city it is in has a reputation for it. But I’m not a very social person. I have a tendency to have panic attacks when too much attention is drawn to me, so I tend to avoid group things. That’s why I feel like I can’t really tell anyone because I have this nagging feeling that I’ll suddenly break down one day. I’m an incredibly emotionally unstable person. And I know that my few male friends are going to get distant, because that’s how they were with another of my close friends that came out.
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pd0815 7:33 am on June 9, 2010 Permalink | Log in to Reply
it’s amazing he has allowed you to fuck with him as long as you have.
noworries 6:18 am on June 10, 2010 Permalink | Log in to Reply
You switched it around, bro. I did this to her, and I feel awful about everything. I’ve stopped bothering her; now she can get on with her life without me.