I suppose you’ve got a new bff then. Not that I was ever yours in the first place. Thanks for stabbing me one more time in the back. Next time dig around a little more and put me out of my misery.
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You have no clue how bad this has gotten, do you. You don’t know that I end up in a ball crying on the floor most nights. How many times do I have to ask for help before you realize I actually really need it?
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I’m in such an awful place right now. You know, I used to not really get that phrase. “In a bad place”. But I completely understand it now. It just makes sense to say. This is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do, and I thought I’d have you to get through it with. It […]
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I want to scream. Can’t find the blades, can’t sleep, can’t feel clean, can’t feel safe. I wish I could run to your for answers.
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I’m his toy. I wish I had the courage to shoplift. When people ask me if I have a boyfriend I like having to say no. I have an awful bias against people when I find out they drink a lot. I like grocery shopping, even though it makes me fat.
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“Nobody heard him, the dead man, But still he lay moaning: I was much further out than you thought, and not waving but drowning.” I’m trying to reach out to you, because I have a feeling one of these days I’m not going to resurface.
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Borderline Personality Disorder is the angel and devil on my shoulders. I could for sure life with this. Except that I end up forcing everyone away from me. If I had you I could force myself to deal with this.
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No one gets it… Is there no one in the world that sees from my point of view? Can no one sympathize?
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I get it. but what is so great about your point of view?
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Thats the second sign of you I’ve seen tonight. I really want you back. To be honest, I sort of need you? Theres nothing worth enough, and you were worth a lot, and I think if you could come back, you could fix this. BAD WOLF
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I’m sorry. This reply is not related at all to your post but - I feel compelled to ask - is that a Dr Who reference?
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of course
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My whole world is dissolving before my eyes. Everyone hates me, their hugs feel cold and worthless. The little amount of work I have to do is unbearable. I cant seem to find any worth in anything except sleep. One day closer to the time where I know I’ll eventually see him. I just want […]
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I believe you suffer from a condition known as being a huge stoner. Try to live up to the person you used to be, that made me think this was worth it all. I wish I’d realized back then.
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i wish you’d accept people for who they are and not what the were or can be.
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Well you see, sometimes people change for the wrong reasons.
When someones done awful things to you it’s rather difficult to be passive and accepting about them.
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I don’t ever want to eat again. If it makes you like me I never will. Even it it’s really pity, or guilt, I don’t care. Anything to make you realize.
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“What you think means more than anything else in your life. More than what you earn, more than where you live, more than your social position, and more than what anyone else may think about you” As someone who has suffered from her eating disorder for almost 12 years to the day (ironically, almost half my life to the day also), you need to live your life for you. People will come and go from your life, more often than not, leaving huge scars that will only fade in time. If turning to an eating disorder to be accepted by someone else is the only reason they’ll like you, they are worthless scum. You are worth so much more than conditional love. Love isn’t earned by being skinny, love comes for being who you are, and being that person amazingly! I have been working years to get out of the mindset that love is conditional and that my body is something that I can use and abuse in hopes of finding love and acceptance. I don’t want to see anyone go down this road for the false love of another person. Surround yourself with people who love YOU, not some false contorted image of who you could look like if sick. Love is for who you are inside, and an eating disorder is nothing to love.
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It’s not an eating disorder, borderline personality disorder.
I get everything you’re saying though, thank you.
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ok, the “not eating ever again” part made me worry and another post you made hinted at a developing ED. Just know that those who can’t love the real you aren’t worth the joy of knowing you. If they can’t love you for who you are, every single day, then, they don’t deserve to see the awesome, fun, beautiful person that you are.
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I’m quite tempted to say everything here. Opinions would be interesting. However, I am awfully biased. And I’m sure the response wouldn’t be pleasant. Point: I just need to stop this. It’s not good for me. It doesn’t help.
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Sometimes, it helps to let things out.
If you’re interested for people’s opinions, I’d be happy to give mine.
The response may not be pleasant, but you can’t be sure of everyone’s approach.
Give it a go, and keep it anonymous.Daniela
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You make me want to kill myself. And I hope you find out.
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im sorry. whats wrong? if you need someone to talk to im here and i’ll listen.
my email is killa_king076@yahoo.com and my aim is zepplinfan1991
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My scars, my coping device, in joint fault with my anxiety, has almost completely taken away my personality. I don’t want to lose it. I don’t want to forget all things good, but on the other hand I want to become nothing.
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I really really miss the feeling of your hands on my back. I really regret not paying as much attention to it as I did. I miss the feeling of another human being. The other people around me feel more like ghosts than anything.
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“nobodys lonely till some bodys gone”
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One of my dearest friends resurfaced after a week today, after having tried to overdose on morphine. I know exactly how she feels, but I love her so much, I wish I could do something big to help her.
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I feel horribly empty, and I don’t want anymore nightmares.
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You, the person that picked a fight and was rude to me years ago, you’re why my life is so fucking crap. You’re why I have no self-confidence.
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People do stupid things at a young age because they can’t logically think of the repercussion of their actions. Teenagers especially, have so much angst that they do impulsive s**t, in order to cope with what they are going through. Hell, even older people do stupid things. I did bad things toward some people when I was growing up because I was picked on/discriminated racially. I managed to find a clique that gave me strength but I used it to get revenge.
Let’s play a game. Pretend that I was the person who picked a fight with you. We are now at the age we are in 2010. Now, I’m gonna say something, and you can reply however you want. You can even blow up on me. You can even spit on my face if it’ll make you happy.
PM, I’m sorry that I acted so immature and rude back then. I was out of control and I had a low self-esteem. I was coward to face my problems and I’m sorry that I made your life miserable all this time. I know that my action had tarnished your trust with people and I know I can’t give those years back. I do apologize for my inhumane and cruel behavior. It has been hard carrying all the guilt for all the wrong things I have done. Karma has not forgiven me and I would understand if you will never too.
**end role play**
When you let go of the shame, the pain, and the guilt, you will free yourself. When you hold on to the negative things, it will only bring you down. I hope you let go of the negativity and bring in the positive attitude. Your self-confidence is in there with you. You know why you cannot bring it out. If you let go, the confidence will come out. Good luck.
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i promise i will not eat all weekend. please.
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quiteabitch 9:15 pm on July 27, 2010 Permalink | Log in to Reply
Dont you dare let that bitch put you on misery. She doesnt even deserve being in your mind if she makes you feel that bad.