Hah. How stupid am I? Thinking that you wanted to be around me. No. I’m too needy and annoying. Too high maintenance. Because wanting to be around you because I love you is being needy. And no, why would you be straightforward with me? Why say “No, I don’t want to hang out” when you […]
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Lethal Love
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cpop
I want to kill myself. I have wanted to kill myself for as long as I could remember. I attempted suicide when I was 17 and my mother came in to talk to me about God and how if you do bad things doesn’t mean you’re a bad person and that God always forgives, then […]
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JadedNikky
I got my heart broken a few weeks ago. It still hurts when he doesnt talk to me or joke around like we used too. It makes me feel alone sometimes. Other times it makes me feel angry. And occasionally, I still feel for him.
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quiteabitch
Aw,….Im so sorry…. Would you mind explaining what happened?
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JadedNikky
Well, my friend (lets call him Brady) told me a few weeks ago that the dude I like (lets call him James) told Brady that he likes me. So Brady was like: Do you like him? And I said yes.
So the next day Brady told James that I liked him (they share art class together) and when I got to the class me and James share, James ignored me the whole way through, no matter how many inside jokes I did or anything I did.
So I questioned Brady about it and apparently, James didnt really say he liked me, Brady assumed he did. So I got heartbroken in the end result.
So yea. [/story]
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quiteabitch
James is an asshole. Too inmature tbh. Why wouldnt he talk to you over such thing? Im sorry but nothing but an inamture asshole. O bet he sdoesnt deserve you.
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JadedNikky
Haha, thank you. Thats actually the part that hurts me is that he wouldnt talk to me about it. He is pretty immature though and I would love to say I’m over him, but it does resurface ever once in awhile. So I’m just going to ignore him back and find someone else who’s better to go after, you know.
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quiteabitch
Yeah….Its ok & normal to feel that. We must remember that its not with our minds we feel…But with our hearts. Yeah, try someone else who does deserve you. Good Luck
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Little Red
I wish my ex best friend was dead. Actually dead. Not breathing. Does that make me a monster? At least I can admit to it, right…?
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SlowlyRising
That’s quite a thing to want for a former friend. It may be none of my business, but what did they do that made you feel this way?
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questionmark
I’d say it makes you human. Anger is healthy to a level. Like food and relatives it must be taken in moderation.
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seasky
I don’t want to do this anymore. Some years ago, I lose myself and now I can’t find myself anymore. I don’t know who I am, and I have no self-control over my actions anyway. Like how people who don’t “work” with education leave it, life and I aren’t working. I don’t know what I’m doing […]
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LieToMeSoftly
I wish I had the right words to tell you, something to help but I feel the same emptiness and loss. Just know you are not alone, others share your pain. It’s never to late to change anything.
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codedarmes
u should go to 4chan.org ya
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itsme1
This is getting bad
I have tried being happy lately. I really do hate being down and I am normally an upbeat person. I am usually telling my wife to be more positive…The truth is, I hate my life. I feel like the last 14 years have been a waste. I messed up and put myself in a situation […]
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GraingerGuy
You’re seriously $100K in debt? Credit card debt? Time for bankruptcy my friend. It’ll get the creditors to stop calling and will give you a plan and peace of mind. Call an attorney. That’s one way to start.
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Y ask Y
Hey man. It’s never too late. There’s a saying that you have to eat an Elephant in small bites. Right now I’m sure it looks insurmountable, but even the smallest step towards change might create an Avanlanche towards something greater.
There’s truth in your post, and certainty. The certainty is that if you don’t make a change of some kind, you’re right, your life is guaranteed to be ass until the grave. Hope will come from change, man. It won’t just fall out of the sky. And that’s frightening and it’s shit and it sucks, but that’s how it is.
I don’t know about the debt. But I do know about no having much money to go around. The money has nothing to do with your ability to interact with your kids. Being a great dad is free. It’s just a matter or perspective, and if you don’t have money, ingenuity. You can do it.
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bobburgster
file for bankruptcy
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bjg
i hate myself
i am fourteen and i am fat and hairy. i know that i will never get a boyfriend. i am anxious all the time. all the fucking time. i can’t leave my house. i hate my life. i have headaches all the time. everybody is partying and once again i am home alone eating and […]
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yellowroses
please don’t…you’re probably not fat or hairy. there’s always losing weight & shaving if you are. i’m sure you have reason to live. you’re sad, but there’s still happiness ahead for you.
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cibllmrd
You are only 14….give yourself time to grow up. Things change and I felt similar to you once upon a time. You can change your appearance.
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quiteabitch
I agree with yellowroses. Couldntve said it better myself.
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whyme3
when i walk in class i feel the exact same way. Everyone hates me even the teachers, and most of my old friends ditched me when they found out i wasnt as cool as some people. i wanted 2 kill myself or run away to las vegas with my dad, and i almost did, but i either knew it would hurt me or I’d be too scared to do it. I know what ur talkin about nd where ur comin from. Ive been about 50-100 poundsd overweight since kindergarten, and now in 13 nd da 7th grade 210 lbs. as for the hairy part, for me at school, one day i blew up and tryd 2 tell a boy off, and i might have said i was bi but im definately not. now they stalk me nd call me to tell me that. as for the boy friend part, so far ive only had 3, and eaach one lied nd cheated on me. apparently, they didnt want ppl to kno we went out, so b lucky yu havent had 1. go 4 da 1 dat likes yu 4 yu nd likes the activities yu do, not a flirt who jus wants anybody. im always scared somebody is gonna make fun of my body even more rthan usual, so all through the year, i wear a jacket to hide behind. i hope yu feel better knoing deres ppl out here that feel ur pain.
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questionmark
*sigh* High School. There’s nothing quite like it is there? Listen up, you are at a tough age. I know you’ve heard this before, but there are biological reasons for your frustration.
You are at the self discovery age, hormones are coursing through your veins, you feel the need to bond, to mate, to be accepted. At this age it is a pack mentality. Things are growing, body hair, boobs, other things we shall not mention here.
See here’s the thing. I was in the same boat you were almost a decade ago. I was TALL I do mean tall 6 foot by the age of 13. I didn’t grow boobs until I was 16, much less have a period. I got called names, “Jolly Green Giant”, “goony bird”, etc etc.
Now looking back I’m grateful. Do you know why?
Take a look at the people around you. LOOK at them through your eyes, don’t think of them in the way you are supposed too. Don’t classify them as the jock, the slut, the cheerleader, the bandnerd. Just LOOK at them objectively. Age them up about 10 or 20 years.
NOW tell me, is that really someone you envision yourself with in the future. Do you REALLY want to share genetic material with the specimens you see around you?
I’m willing to bet that you are going to have to reply with a resounding NO to most of the people you see in your classes and at school.
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lolarunsfast
When I was 14 I was awkward and hairy too. High school sucks. I used to wish for a boyfriend everyday, some guy who would show interest in me. My friends all got boyfriends, and they were annoying to be around, and that made the situation even more depressing. I was sure that I would never get a boyfriend either.
Besides, the ones that party at 14 get pregnant before they’re 20. Stay at home and enjoy food. Watch some TV, do your school work. And then, after the hellish purgatory that is high school passes, get the fuck out of that place. Meet new people. New friends will build up your self esteem.
I’m still pretty awkward and hairy, but I’ve come to be happy with myself. Don’t you want to be around to watch as the “hot” people slowly fade in attractiveness as you mature and become more and more beautiful? And don’t you want to be around to experience the joy of a first boyfriend and a first kiss? It’s worth it, it will happen eventually.
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El_Scorcho
It’s been five months since I last kissed you. I feel so alone without you. Barely anyone likes me. But you loved me, I see that now. If only I saw it at the time. I loved you, you’ve always known that. Whether you know I still do, I don’t know. If I were to guess, I’d […]
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Canyoureadmymind
My heart is broken. But its not because of you. I would never give you that much credit. I broke my own heart isnt that what you would say? It was all my fault everything is all my fault. I could be hit by a car in a crosswalk and it would be my fault. […]
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codedarmes
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O.R.T.
No one is ever as they show themselves or describe themselves. I keep trying to get close to people but they end up having the other half to them I never knew, and once I see that, makes me cry. I feel like I will be alone forever if this time things don’t work. How […]
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lifelost
i know what thats like. I miss her and i have never met her. I love her. She used to love me. It wont work for me. Ever. But i keep hoping. Its what keeps me alive.
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MeaningfulUsername
I would really appreciate advice from both guys and girls on this one….anyone, really. Is it normal to be dissapointed when I work up the ovaries to tell him how much I love him and how interested I am in him and whatever he’s doing and only get a “ditto” or “me too” as a response? […]
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O.R.T.
You do not have an unmatchable passion, it’s just that either he isn’t verbal about his feelings, or he doesn’t share those feelings. It’s hard to verbally communicate to someone how you feel in a relationship and try and make them feel how you feel through the extent of mere words. So either you have to believe him, or you don’t…
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somewhereBX
Christmas sucks when you’re an adult; especially when you don’t get along to well with your family and you have no friends. How depressing. Even sulking is annoying me.
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chb_97
I understand, I’m in the same situation. Finally got rid of the dysfunctional relationships in my life (some of them family), but now don’t really have healthy relationships to take their place. So here’s me, home, alone, on Christmas. Hang in there. This f*cking holiday will be over soon.
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somewhereBX
I hear that. It’s been tough to make new relationships. My wife and I recently split (we’re seeing other people, got together young, blah blah). That’s great and all, but I really don’t have anything to do. It’s pretty lame. I have not social life, and now I’m here bitching about it. I just want to fast forward the fun part already.
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chb_97
Sounds like my life. Why does it have to be so hard to get out of the old stuff and into the new? I’m divorced now, new job, new living location, etc. Starting over is absolutely what I wanted and it was the right thing to do, but it has taken so much out of me, I’m exhausted. I want a social life, friends, companionship. etc. It’s been too long and I’m ready for life to be fun again!!
If you figure out how to fast forward, please let me know. I could really use it too
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somewhereBX
I’m in the early process of starting over myself; it’s terrifying. I really feel alone. Is it time to “man up”? Eh. FFWD>>>
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Dmonix
im always torn between wanting companionship and saying fuck it, most of the human race is idiotic anyway. but alas, this feeling of loneliness doesnt want to go away. my dad (r.i.p) was a bit of a drinker, and i know i shouldnt, but i would kill for a case of beer. i mean, at […]
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chb_97
I hear ya. I want people in my life, community, friendship, bf, etc. But then people in general just annoy the hell out of me. I know I shouldn’t start drinking again, don’t really want to, but man it’s a nice way to pass the time.
Don’t know if that helps you, but it sure helps me to know that I’m not the only one out there who feels this way.
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scp
i think i hate my mom. i know, i know, i’m supposed to love her, and i’m trying hard right now but I’m tired of it. I’m tired of striving for her approval and never getting it. I want to give up. I’m tired of her being a bitch to me when I’m trying so […]
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thallie
I understand this. Believe me, I do. There are a billion times a day where I think how easy it would be to just stop speaking to her and never look back. But someone on here told me something, and it’s really stuck with me:
Oftentimes, the people who deserve our love the least need it the most.
I know it’s hard, but she is your mother. I didn’t speak to mine for three months last summer. I moved to another state in that time. And, honestly? As much as I hate her, and as much as I hate all that she’s done to me and, I know, will continue to do to me, it really sucked to not talk to her.
I wish there was something I could say to make it better, but there isn’t. Just try to grin and bear it. It’s all you can do, really.
I wish you the very, very best.
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noleftturns
Surprises
I wish someone would surprise me with something nice. Just once. I feel like I’m always trying to please people, and I never get the same in return. Take me to lunch, stop by my place for a visit unannounced, show an honest interest in me for once, I don’t care. I just want proof you […]
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immortally.alive
I know exactly how you feel. sometimes you give n give n give, but when ur in need theres no one in sight. my friends only talk to me when they need somethin n they never text or call to see how im doin. although i’d spend my last dime on them.. Theres not much i can do. The world is selfish and ugly… good thing theres still ppl like us. keep ur head up, cuz ur probably making someones day.
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Remixer
People are far less grateful for what you do for them than you will probably ever believe.
However, you have no right to expect the things you do.
Either they show interest in you or they don’t. Humans are fickle that way.
Trying to “coerce” (for lack of a better word) them into having an interest in you by doing nice things for them, the fault lies with you and noone else.
If you are not satisfied with it, find better friends or change your attitude.
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noleftturns
Wow, you’re pretty cynical. When it comes down to it I don’t do nice things to get people to like me, I do them because I like people. My friends like me and I like them, and I have to congratulate you on getting me to see that by posting a response as useless as “people suck you should get better friends.” That’s a real gift.
P.S: You don’t have to put your name at the end of your post. We already see it at the top.
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noleftturns
Addendum: After seeing your other posts, I’m pretty sure you’re either out of touch with humanity, a troll, or a fourteen year old.
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Remixer
Cheers, but I’m neither of those.
Regardless, the point still stands, that if you’re not happy with what you have, change must occur.
Whether you accept that logic or brand it as cynical and me as a troll, is your decision. Neither affects the argument in place.
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noleftturns
Well, crisis averted.
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Kitty
I feel the same <3
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secondchancesx3
I kiind off feel the same sometimes..but not really. Like I do things for people because I want to do them. Not because I expect something in return.
but then sometimes, set the whole, i do things for people aside, i feel like i just dont get treated well sometimes. But it has nothing to do with the fact that i did something for them first…
idk if that makes any sense at all. lol
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thallie
He just told me about how he spent last night taking care of a girl he barely knows who is “very depressed”. Why can he deal with her, but not me…?
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Dmonix
well maybe its easier for him because he doesnt care for her as much as he does you. ya gotta talk to him and tell him how ya feel!
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Dmonix
im incredibly lonely and i think its slowly driving me insane. i’d like to think that sometimes the universe has plans for me, and ill find a cool group of friends and everything will be okay, but right now it seems mary jane is my only friend. and sometimes i cant even find her
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Kitty
hey.
I’ll be your friend.
i sometimes feel like i will never find someone that i can truely rely on, to be my friend forever.
But then, we have all the time in the world dont we.. sort of.http://adayinthelifeof-theshannon.blogspot.com/
- Shannon
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Dmonix
well i appreciate that. i guess i feel like i have so much to offer someone, yet i still have no one to offer it to. plus the whole being insecure about being alone thing makes it a bad combo
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Kitty
me too, im always being told im special and so unique and talented in so many ways. yet.. im not good enough to be someones true friend. :/
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Dmonix
well id think we’d make good friends. i guess the thing to do is either wait for em to come to you, or go out and find some people who are on your level.
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somewhereBX
I feel the same way. Sometimes Mary isn’t even that fun. This sucks.
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thallie
I miss him so, so, so, so incredibly, mind numbingly, heart achingly much. All I want is a call a night. Ten minutes. But that’s too much to ask for. I’m so lonely, but what else can I do? It’s even worse, because I know that he’s with her when he’s not talking to me. […]
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Cornholio
Thallie: I feel for you, I’m in the same position. I wish I could forget her. Though we’re meeting again soon I think this will be a mistake
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secondchancesx3
“I miss him so, so, so, so incredibly, mind numbingly, heart achingly much.”
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“I wish that I didn’t love him half as much as I do.”2 sentences that describe exactly how i feel about internet dude.
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bunny
This describes me so well, too
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scp
Oh god, I can relate so badly. <3
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thallie
I feel like I’m trying to climb up an icy hill. Every time I get to where I can see the top, I just slide back down again, and I feel terrible, because I know it’s silly of me to be so angst-tastic when there are so many people who have real reasons to be upset. […]
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102030405
Your issues aren’t silly! Whatever matters to you is important.
I hope he does ask you to marry him. If it will make you truly happy, it’s worth waiting for — don’t be so anxious, if it happens, whenever it happens will be the perfect time for it.
Also, this is a good place to get your feelings out, you shouldn’t feel ridiculous for posting here. If it helps you express yourself then by all means do it.
I hope things work out for you, thallie.
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Dreamboat Annie
I just wish I had someone I could really talk to…… is that too much to ask?
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coliniscolin11
i know exactly how your feeling… i still have thoughts that i have never shared with anyone. its not too much to ask for though… there’s always someone who will listen to you.
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ithinkineedahug
yes i agree completely….i will listen along with coliniscolin if you like…:\
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Desolate and Forlorn
i know the feeling
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yellowroses 3:10 am on April 12, 2010 Permalink | Log in to Reply
maybe you need to talk to someone, like a therapist. it’s horrible letting people know you go to therapy, but maybe that’s the best for your safety. it’s good that you love your family, hold on to that.