God, I’ve gotten so depressed and hopeless in finding someone that I don’t care about anything anymore. There is this one girl though.. but 1. She lives in a city next to me 2. She might be leading me on. I hope not.. I don’t think I could take something like that right now.. so […]
Continue reading God I’ve gotten so depressed and hopeless in… I am depressed. But I hide it for some reason I have yet to find out. I cant help feeling this emptiness.. this loneliness. I just need someone to love. I hate being alone all the time.. everyone is constantly gone from my house. And I just need someone.. but I feel as if no […]
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I’m dealing with a memory that never forgets… I still love the girl I cheated on my current girlfriend with. Almost 2 years ago it happened and she didn’t find out unti recently when we had a separation. I need happiness in my life. My heart is hopeless confused
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I’m bulimic. I feel like everywhere I go, people are staring at me, wondering how on earth a person could be so fat and feeling good that they aren’t as disgusting to look at as I am. I feel like food controls my life. I’m overweight but not obese; I wear an American size 12-14, […]
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12-14 is perfect. I really don’t know how TV or advertising can literally effect people’s feelings about themselves. We’re designing our cd cover and it’s going to have a dead girl on it. I hope it doesn’t project that we encourage death in girls. because it doesn’t. we love girls .. live ones… with warm skin and . … i’ll stop
It’s been 6 months since I first posted here. It’s been a hell of a year, but life has stabilized. But I’ve got a new problem. It dawned on me that I’ll be all alone on my birthday this year. I’ve got no friends and my family mostly doesn’t want anything to do with me. I […]
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Happy birthday! And I think you should go up and give your sister a hug why not?
Happy birthday. Though I don;t know you personally, I am giving you a hug!!!!
I have tried being happy lately. I really do hate being down and I am normally an upbeat person. I am usually telling my wife to be more positive…The truth is, I hate my life. I feel like the last 14 years have been a waste. I messed up and put myself in a situation […]
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You’re seriously $100K in debt? Credit card debt? Time for bankruptcy my friend. It’ll get the creditors to stop calling and will give you a plan and peace of mind. Call an attorney. That’s one way to start.
Hey man. It’s never too late. There’s a saying that you have to eat an Elephant in small bites. Right now I’m sure it looks insurmountable, but even the smallest step towards change might create an Avanlanche towards something greater.
There’s truth in your post, and certainty. The certainty is that if you don’t make a change of some kind, you’re right, your life is guaranteed to be ass until the grave. Hope will come from change, man. It won’t just fall out of the sky. And that’s frightening and it’s shit and it sucks, but that’s how it is.
I don’t know about the debt. But I do know about no having much money to go around. The money has nothing to do with your ability to interact with your kids. Being a great dad is free. It’s just a matter or perspective, and if you don’t have money, ingenuity. You can do it.
file for bankruptcy
I’m in love with a girl I met online a few months ago. She knows I’m in love with her. She’s three years older than I and treats me like a child because of it. It feels so degrading when she does. She asks me to do a lot for her and asks me to […]
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I think you need to see a psychiatrist, mate, and then a psychotherapist if possible. They may be able to give you tools that will help stabilize that roller coaster. If you’ve been already and had no progress, try someone else, maybe from a different approach. Throw everything you’ve got at it before you give up completely. If you can’t afford doctors, see if you can at least find a support group in your area, those are free and you don’t have to talk if you don’t want to.
You have identified that you think something is wrong with you - that’s the first step. The next step is deciding whether you are willing to work to fix what is broken. That’s not an overnight process, it’s a gradual metamorphosis. Something is holding you back from suicide, which says to me that it isn’t truly what you want for yourself, deep down.
You want to be loved and cared for - that’s normal, and definitely tough when you feel so alone. But people can’t love you properly if you don’t reach out to them, if they don’t know you, if you don’t tell them what you are feeling or thinking. You may not have the tools to do that yet, so go get them! It’s hard work, but when the reward is love, isn’t that worthwhile? (Corny, I know, sorry.)
Good luck, mate. I have been in that big dark abyss and know it isn’t much fun. I’ve also lost people to it, and that wasn’t much fun either.
Thanks for the reply, Ambriel. I have considered going to see a psychiatrist/psychotherapist, but in order to do that I would actually have to tell my mother about things I am no where near ready to explain, nor do I want to have to tell any other family member. If I could go see one alone and not have to give any reasons as to why I want to see one, I would certainly have already tried to go. Hopefully someday I’ll be able to find a way to get to one without having to explain my situation to family.. I’d much rather keep it private.
What you added is something I can relate to a little bit - the worst relationships I have ever had were the one I got into when I was the most vulnerable. Which is another reason you need to fix whatever is going wrong for you. People will use you and make the problem worse. This girl sounds like a user and the simple fact of the matter is that you are smarter than this, you deserve better and can do better. Once the part of you that knows that has woken up, it will be easier to move on and nigh impossible for her to drag you back.
what’s going on here is she might be scared of getting in trouble for being a child molester. maybe when you’re eighteen she will open up and not run away. but then she will be 21 and the next phase for her sets in… oh yea. then again she seems to be quite open talking to you about about her past experiences. If she didn’t talk about them, you would always be wondering about them. I think if you didn’t choose to be such a loner you wouldn’t have these problems with such everyday things to deal with.
I do not believe you could be called a “child molester” for just having feelings for someone three years younger than yourself, especially if there is no sexual things going on between us. She has mentioned that she “wishes I was 18” a couple of times before, but if she’s going to wait until I’m eighteen to tell me something, then that’s pretty pathetic. I agree with the loner bit as choosing this path and sticking to it only helped me to be even more so socially inept. Thanks for the reply.
It’s been five months since I last kissed you. I feel so alone without you. Barely anyone likes me. But you loved me, I see that now. If only I saw it at the time. I loved you, you’ve always known that. Whether you know I still do, I don’t know. If I were to guess, I’d […]
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nevermind
This sounds like a lot of pre-relationship OCD. Did you create some kind of list of guidelines that someone needs to fall into to have a workable relationship with you? If so, that’s crap and it will always bite you in the end.
nevermind
what fetish? I haven’t seen one. but maybe my tolerance is way to high to notice anymore.
I agree with pd0815. You don’t seem to have any fetish. It’s all in your head. And you DON’T sound like a freak. I get the same way too. You’re overanalyzing your situation a bit much. I’m sure you’re going to find one girl, who will make you feel comfortable, trust me. And for the meanwhile, take it easy. Take one step at a time.
I think I am attracted to All Time Shannon. I bet she’s cute and funny too. Don’t get all freaked out. I’m not the stalker type.
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I think she will be flattered 
She’s a rly sweet person.
Haha, awh thanks so much ^^;
- Shannon, x
OMG. I didn’t know you were 14. I’m sorry. I was trying to be silly and nice, but not creepy. I just read some of your confessions. I didn’t know you were a youngster. lol. But, some of your confessions were a bit sad. Don’t get all wrapped up in a boy at your age. And certainly, self harm is not a good thing. People will always fail you. As sad as it is, even those with the best intentions will fall short from time to time. The only person you can always trust is God.
I’ve lost faith in god.
I’m sorry to hear that. Really. All too often we see difficulties in life as a sign that God hates us or that there is no God. It is usually because we put too much faith in people.
How does age factor into this?
I’m not sure :/
Clearly, he was attracted to you but musn’t be a teen, around your age, anymore!
Not to worry, plenty of fish in the sea, RandomGuy!
How could you say I’m too sensitive? All I asked for is basic consideration. And you couldn’t even give me that. So we’re over, and it hurts me, it hurts me like hell. I feel lonely, and I cry knowing we’ll never see each other, never even talk, again. I wish I could know you […]
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algoogla,
I know the hurt you have been feeling. I know 100%.
I believe you are new to GroupHug Live? If so, you probably haven’t heard my story. I’m not going to repeat it. In short, I was in a similar situation to you; we dated for quite some months and it ended because we fought so so so much. Because I was so sensitive. Hypersensitive, you might say. And him? He was cold.
I know the feeling of knowing it will never happening again, and I also know the feeling of being led to believe that it could, in the future. I’ve been tormented without him even knowing he was doing it. He hurt me so so so so so so much. I couldn’t hate him for breaking up with me because he had a point, and the way he treated me, I forgave him too.
He’s already moved on, too. With another girl.
What was more, he never felt the pain I felt when he dumped me. And frankly, he didn’t care.
We agreed to be friends but he still, on occasion, sends mixed messages, and only now have I realised that I am much better off with him not being my friend for now. Him being around me killed me. Him being online on MSN killed me, so I finally had the courage to block him. I have never felt so relieved.
I promise you the pain goes away. If I were speaking with him, I’d be stuck in a rut, knowing how much I still miss him. I now know that the only way that feeling will go away, is if I move on. Moving on requires distance and it requires cutting ties. For people like me anyway, the sensitive kind. I still think about him everyday, I still think about what we had, and that a year ago today we were together hugging and kissing and falling for one another. The thought never even crossed my mind that quite possibly one year later I’d be sitting here, writing advice from my own personal break-up to you, a complete stranger.
I know that I am speaking about my self, but I am using my own experience as an example to you, to show you that the hurt won’t go away for a while. We broke up toward the end of September, and I am still hurt and a little shocked at how all of this happened.
But I want to you to know that it will get better, and to answer your confession above, you can love again. He was my first love, too. He meant the world to me, and the thought of dating someone else scared the living daylights out of me. But it is possible. I am currently afraid of being hurt and I am concerned about all the drama and pain relationships carry, but in time, when I do meet someone else, and when you meet someone else, it will be okay, and although you won’t ever forget your first, you will definitely be able to love again. You deserve happiness and you deserve love, and to be loved in return. It will happen, just don’t wait around for it.
We’ll be okay.
Your confession spoke to me. Wholly.
I want to help you, so if you want to talk to me about anything at all, I’m here for you.
Daniela
(By the way, a way of forgetting about him/her, is by focusing on little projects, focus on reading, studying, socialising, rekindling lost friendships, being surrounded by people, and I find too, creative writing helps.)
im always torn between wanting companionship and saying fuck it, most of the human race is idiotic anyway. but alas, this feeling of loneliness doesnt want to go away. my dad (r.i.p) was a bit of a drinker, and i know i shouldnt, but i would kill for a case of beer. i mean, at […]
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I hear ya. I want people in my life, community, friendship, bf, etc. But then people in general just annoy the hell out of me. I know I shouldn’t start drinking again, don’t really want to, but man it’s a nice way to pass the time.
Don’t know if that helps you, but it sure helps me to know that I’m not the only one out there who feels this way.
I don’t know, I feel very lonely quite often. I do have a boyfriend and when I’m with him I feel okay, enless we argue, but when I’m alone I feel very depressed and alone. One very pleasant thing that I do to cheer me up is masturbation. I know that isn’t a realistic way […]
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Nothing wrong being kinky just make sure it never go to far.
But at what point is it too far?…
When it involves wrapping things around your face or neck?
I can sympathise here. You sound a lot like I was with the exception than I’m more of a domme rather than a sub.
Maybe try exploring some of this with your boyfriend? Start with less intense stuff (light bondage, blindfold, etc) and if you both enjoy it work your way up. The trust and communication required in BSDM can bring you closer and help with the feelings of lonliness, certainly did for me.
I have been cheating for months. On and off, nothing serious. Never the same person twice, except for one. But I don’t see that one anymore. I start feeling like shit, then HE treats me like shit and I don’t care anymore for the rest of the day. Then we go to sleep at night […]
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If you like that married woman more than me, which it seems you do. Then Dump me! Don’t wait till after the holidays don’t string me along dropping bits of affection my way here and there just dump me. My confession is I can’t dump you 1. Because you’ve been the best boyfriend I’ve ever […]
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I just really want to talk to her, tell her everything. But I’m too much of a wuss to get the ball rolling. What if I bore her? Or she doesn’t want to talk? I over think things too much. The goal is that during the winter break off from college I’ll have a nice talk with […]
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Stop thinking, just act.
I wish someone would surprise me with something nice. Just once. I feel like I’m always trying to please people, and I never get the same in return. Take me to lunch, stop by my place for a visit unannounced, show an honest interest in me for once, I don’t care. I just want proof you […]
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I know exactly how you feel. sometimes you give n give n give, but when ur in need theres no one in sight. my friends only talk to me when they need somethin n they never text or call to see how im doin. although i’d spend my last dime on them.. Theres not much i can do. The world is selfish and ugly… good thing theres still ppl like us. keep ur head up, cuz ur probably making someones day.
People are far less grateful for what you do for them than you will probably ever believe.
However, you have no right to expect the things you do.
Either they show interest in you or they don’t. Humans are fickle that way.
Trying to “coerce” (for lack of a better word) them into having an interest in you by doing nice things for them, the fault lies with you and noone else.
If you are not satisfied with it, find better friends or change your attitude.
Remixer
Wow, you’re pretty cynical. When it comes down to it I don’t do nice things to get people to like me, I do them because I like people. My friends like me and I like them, and I have to congratulate you on getting me to see that by posting a response as useless as “people suck you should get better friends.” That’s a real gift.
P.S: You don’t have to put your name at the end of your post. We already see it at the top.
Addendum: After seeing your other posts, I’m pretty sure you’re either out of touch with humanity, a troll, or a fourteen year old.
Cheers, but I’m neither of those.
Regardless, the point still stands, that if you’re not happy with what you have, change must occur.
Whether you accept that logic or brand it as cynical and me as a troll, is your decision. Neither affects the argument in place.
Remixer
Well, crisis averted.
I feel the same <3
- Shannon
I kiind off feel the same sometimes..but not really. Like I do things for people because I want to do them. Not because I expect something in return.
but then sometimes, set the whole, i do things for people aside, i feel like i just dont get treated well sometimes. But it has nothing to do with the fact that i did something for them first…
idk if that makes any sense at all. lol
i think im gonna stop coming here. its useless for me now. i honestly just dont care about anything. my future, my past, my current, anything. i feel useuless, abused, mistreated, not appreciated, un loved, a complete fuck up. thats all i am, and all i will ever be, untell the day i die. even […]
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Live life on what you think about yourself. Not on what other people think about you.
You know you haven’t been doing anything wrong, so don’t give up hope.
I wish you all the best in life, and I promise you I do not think you’re a fuck no matter what.
Good luck with it all,
Daniela
Sorry, I don’t think you’re a ‘fuck up’.
Daniela
Don’t stop. We all care. Best wishes to you if you do stop though.
Thats not nice to be told things like that and someone to treat you like that,that you are not good enough this and that.Dont listen to that s*** and crap,to me that is for small kids not for adults to talk like that who should have respect for each other.That is so hurting to be told things like that,I would slap him on the face who ever it is.Who has the right to tell you that whatever you do is not right,i think she is judgementall she should look at herself.There is people who can really badly make your self-esteem bad and I really hate them.Those kind of people think they are all that and in love withthemselfs well i am not in lvoe with them,too badddddddddddd.
I talked to him last night. Really talked to him for the first time in a couple of weeks. I told him how lonely I’ve been, and what sorts of therapy my shrink has been doing. He asked to see, so I showed him a few of the sketches from my diary. I wish I’d […]
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Thallie,
I’m going to give to the most rational advice I can muster, I don’t want to he hurtful, just truthful.
It seems to me that his initial reason for coming back to you was because, yes, he still loved you, but it seems that it is slowly ebbing away. From what you tell us, it just doesn’t feel like he wants to continue on with working things out anymore, and especially if he is hanging out with that other girl again. He can’t deny his feelings, i think.
The short response would be for me to suggest to get over him, but it is so much more difficult than what it sounds.
Do you really want to work things out with a guy who USED to make you happy?
It seems that now he just doesn’t feel for you as much as you’d want him to. He broke up with you because you were going through a tough time, i hardly think that is fair, or nice. Yes you took it out on him, and yes you hurt him, but it wasn’t as if you did it because you didn’t love him anymore nor was it intentional, you have personal issues which are affect you and no, you should never take it out on other people, but sometimes, we can’t help it.
If the positions were reversed, and he had family problems and caused fights and upsets with you, who had a relatively normal life, would you break up with him?
He just reached the end of his tether, and it can happen sometimes, but things can be so so so much worse, and if he can’t support or deal with a bit of a depression on the ‘Relationship Scale’, then I can’t imagine him being able to deal other important issues with you and sticking with you through thick and thin. He might have used to, but it doesn’t seem like that anymore.
Telling him about the steps you’re taking to get help may have had an opposite effect to what you were hoping - you were possibly trying to show him that you need him because there is a lot going on in your life… the thing is, it seems the thing that is taking over your everything is Him, and you’re seeing a Shrink not only for personal problems but also because of him. It might have made him feel terrible and told you, more to convince himself, that you were fine.
Sometimes letting a guy know you’re okay shows that youre moving on, that you don’t need him anymore, you’re more dependent etc. and that in itself can be an almost attractive thing to him. That, or youre ridding him of all guilt so he can move on with the new girl.
My ex told me while I was crying that he reckoned I would be okay. And what has driven me to that point of being okay is reverse psychology. It can work sometimes, but not always. I’m not saying to you to be vindictive and hope to cause a little bit of emotional pain or emptiness toward him, but both you and him benefit from it from your coping.
You go to college right? There are plent of people out there! Socialise, study in the library (looking smart can work wonders 
)
Stop yourself from being miserable because it is HIM that is doing that to you.
I want to help you and I want you to have a happy disposition and to move on and you know, being independent brings out your confidence, and that can be the most irresistible thing. You have to understand that he wouldnt be very ‘attracted’ to you if you’re showing yourself as, for lack of a better word, weak and i suppose unhappy.
You feel happy when you speak with him, but it seems sporadic, you aren’t constantly having fantastic conversation, things are probably a little rusty. Is he approaching you, offering to see you to hang out?
I’ve said this before, but I think you know in your heart of hearts what to do.
I hope what I said makes sense, because I’m here to help, remember that, and thanks for your comment on my confession before,
Take care,
Daniela
i like that song…haaah sorry that last line made me think of a song..anywayss im sorry…and i hope that you think you pushed him away but you two actually bonded and became closer. best of luck:)
I miss him so, so, so, so incredibly, mind numbingly, heart achingly much. All I want is a call a night. Ten minutes. But that’s too much to ask for. I’m so lonely, but what else can I do? It’s even worse, because I know that he’s with her when he’s not talking to me. […]
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Thallie: I feel for you, I’m in the same position. I wish I could forget her. Though we’re meeting again soon I think this will be a mistake
“I miss him so, so, so, so incredibly, mind numbingly, heart achingly much.”
&&
“I wish that I didn’t love him half as much as I do.”
2 sentences that describe exactly how i feel about internet dude. 
arrgghh…
This describes me so well, too
Oh god, I can relate so badly. <3
AsKnownAs. 9:03 am on July 1, 2011 Permalink | Log in to Reply
The best advice I can give to you is that it’ll happen when it’s supposed to.
Don’t wait around for it to come to you, it feels like forever when you do that. Find something to distract your mind because you never know, you might actually meet someone special via an extra curricular activity.
I can also assure you of one thing. When you do meet that person, whether they’re right or wrong, permanent or temporary, if they make you happy in the here and now, it’ll suddenly make sense why it took so long for you to meet them. There’s this euphoric sense of how it all flows and fuses together in some kind of poetic path and you’ll be grateful for it happening when it happens.
Just be patient. Everything happens for a reason : )
quiteabitch 2:15 pm on July 1, 2011 Permalink | Log in to Reply
I second what AsKnownAs wrote, I really couldn’t have said it better myself.
I wanna add too the following: She might be leading you on, but I think that you should take the risk to try to date her, I mean, if you don’t take risks it will be very hard to find someone…Especially if you are a guy.
And second, you are not alone. I’ve felt the same way myself and many, many people I’ve known have had the same trouble. It’s okay. And well yeah, try new stuff and don’t be afraid. It will be over eventually =) We are here to support you.