I am scared. Very scared that if i was to get married and have children, I would feel resentment. That my feelings would lead to acrimony, pain and heartbreak. Not just for me, but A. and any children that we may have. I have to write this down. This catharsis is necessary to allow me to […]
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My best friend currently out with the girl I like, and I always knew that I didn’t have a chance, and she was into him, but it burns. Last night we all hung out together, we goofing around I sprained my ankle while chasing her, (as apt a metaphor as any I could come up with). […]
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I understand, because I myself feel the same way at times. But I really hope that one day you find true beauty in a girl. The kind of beauty that lasts forever… And then youll realize that beauty isnt so hard to obtain.
I live a gigantic lie. I put on a mask of confidence and happiness around all of my friends, family, and girlfriend. I wake up every day grabbing for a tablet of xanax and a cigarette to stave off morning panic attacks, with usually 2 or 3 more doses during the day to stay emotionally averted. […]
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I hate people who complain. Get the fuck over it and keep on truckin’. Life will not wait on you. Why should you linger trying to fix or figure out things that have passed? There is absolutely no reason!
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Maybe some things take some time and effort to let go and some things are even worth holding onto and fighting for
My little brother killed himself 3 years ago. I still have a really hard time dealing with it, but can’t bring myself to talk to anyone else about it. I can’t afford a therapist, and I don’t see any reason why I should burden anyone else with my problems and negative feelings. But truth be […]
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I would gladly give you a hug if I could. Being able to tell other people about your problems isn’t burdening, it’s a sign you trust and care about them. Talk to someone in person.
You need to stop thinking about suicide. I don’t think it’s what you really want, and more importantly, I don’t think it’s what your brother would want.
HUUUGSGGSSSSS!!
I’m sorry. Hugs
If I could I would hug you till your bones crack
Love
S.
I can’t handle my emotion any more so i block them all now I fear I will never again be truley happy
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I’m so sorry.
Talking helps, I promise.
Vent on here, or to the people who love you.
It will be ok once you let it out.
it really hard for me to just let it out
my memorey is a scaring one and i am scared it will just return itself
as history does so many times
I have tried being happy lately. I really do hate being down and I am normally an upbeat person. I am usually telling my wife to be more positive…The truth is, I hate my life. I feel like the last 14 years have been a waste. I messed up and put myself in a situation […]
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You’re seriously $100K in debt? Credit card debt? Time for bankruptcy my friend. It’ll get the creditors to stop calling and will give you a plan and peace of mind. Call an attorney. That’s one way to start.
Hey man. It’s never too late. There’s a saying that you have to eat an Elephant in small bites. Right now I’m sure it looks insurmountable, but even the smallest step towards change might create an Avanlanche towards something greater.
There’s truth in your post, and certainty. The certainty is that if you don’t make a change of some kind, you’re right, your life is guaranteed to be ass until the grave. Hope will come from change, man. It won’t just fall out of the sky. And that’s frightening and it’s shit and it sucks, but that’s how it is.
I don’t know about the debt. But I do know about no having much money to go around. The money has nothing to do with your ability to interact with your kids. Being a great dad is free. It’s just a matter or perspective, and if you don’t have money, ingenuity. You can do it.
file for bankruptcy
today is just the hardest damn day if i can go an hour without a crying fit, i think i might just be OK
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Today my boyfriend almost broke up with me. It’s funny, I had been somewhat fed up with the relationship and the thought of ending it had been crossing my mind. It didn’t exactly sadden me, either. It was almost a relief. He moved 150 miles away a few weeks ago and things have been tough […]
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From what you’re saying, he’s right, you know? And you seem to admit it too… Seems to me like you took his assurances to mean that you can get away with everything and tried to do just that, so maybe something like this is just what you both needed.
There can be a certain degree of constructive arguments and perhaps even a certain degree of butting heads for no other reason than because it’s how you “work” without problems because that’s just how some people are (myself included - though not in a relationship; bar a few crucial issues, with her I’d just shrug and give in, it was too important to risk over differences of opinion on non-critical issues, which is something you may need to learn), but when it gets to basically just aggravating the other on purpose or even just putting minor issues in front of the relationship, that can’t work.
Think of it as a new start, if he’s truly willing to give it another go. But TALK about it, A LOT!
I’m trying to keep from being depressed. For once I’ve had happiness for longer than 4 minutes. It’s been a week and I’ve been happy. So happy I’ve been paranoid. I just want to keep being happy…after 2 years of depression, I need to be happy. I need to be around people that can help me be happy. […]
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happiness is strange after depression. dont rush into it. take it in strides. its like withdrawl for lack of something better to phrase it as. you’re so used to being depressed happiness is hurting all at once. take it in strides.
Do the attempts at getting girls to video chat with you ever work?
I don’t ask them to video chat. I just ask to chat in general… and usually it isn’t just girls.
Sometimes it does. If it doesn’t, I’m not bothered. For the most part I just look for people to talk to
You’re really bad at trolling by the way.
that’s because i’m not a troll.
I never thought anyone like you could exist. You’re my everything. I’m in love with you. I know you like me, but I’m so afraid to tell you I love you. Thanks to you, I feel free. I broke up with my ass of a boyfriend, I learned to stop listening to my father’s awful […]
Continue reading My heart is torn… I haven’t seen you in years. You live in a different state. I just talked with you on Facebook. I’m in love with you. You’re one of the kindest people I’ve ever met. You’re caring, understanding, and don’t hang onto the bad things too much. I wish I could be with you. The worst part […]
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i understand how you feel. I met someone a few years ago, he lives in a different state and joined the marines. I just finished skyping with the guy I’m in love with who might be getting deployed soon.
I wish you the best and try to think positively! Merry Christmas
Really? That’s really sad. I’m glad to know I’m not the only one who feels this way. I hope all goes well with your man! Thank you, and hope you had a merry Christmas as well!
Unrequited love is something that no one should have but something that everyone endures. I can say that I have never had my heart broken. Don’t get me wrong, I have had my share of girlfriends. I think I was too scared to get my heart broken. I’m not very open with my feelings, so if […]
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Ever since I was little, I never cared about my appearance. I was born with horrendous teeth, one sticking out and the others mashed together in a hodge podge all over the place- to make it worse, I had a dentist tell me it was the worst case he had seen. That hurts when you […]
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Crooked teeth shouldn’t matter. Anyone who judges you about your teeth or any other flaw you may have, are superficial and are just trying to make themselves feel better.
My ex had a black front tooth. Do you think I cared?
Look beyond these things. Your Fiance clearly does!
Daniela
The sad part was it wasn’t intended as an insult. The customer that said it to me was trying to compliment the execution of the outfit.
If it had been an insult, I could have glazed it over, rolled it off my back and gone on. But it was the honesty and the sincerity which the customer thought were fake teeth that hurt so much.
No, looks shouldn’t matter- but everyone has something about themselves they wish they could change, alter, or even do away with.
I have never seen you, but from this post, I think that you are beautiful (:
Me and my best friend have been going strong for quite awhile now. We even had a celebration recently. But even though we seem like two of the most down to earth people, me and her have been falling out a lot. Normally i wouldn’t be bothered because we get back to our old selves […]
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im in a little stint with my bff too…really bad one…but i think the best thing yo can do is to move on. explain to her why you dont want her in your life anymore. its going to be hard, painfull, and just down right suffering almost everyday. you’ll want to pick up the phone and call and check facebook but forget that. and that saying its going to get worse before it gets better? its true. it really fucking sucks. but i would reather go throught the worst and get better than just be in a cycle of bad my whole life.
So I have this problem, a kind of normal problem I guess. I’m still in love with my ex boyfriend. We started dating August 20th and we were on and off for 9 months. I never gave him head, but I let him take my virginity. After he took my virginity he decided head was more important […]
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I’m in a slightly similar situation.
Except, we broke up after 9 months for fighting over the most irrelevant things that just weren’t important. The thing is, we still remain friends in the hopes of working things out.
That’s when it gets sticky. He doesn’t know what he wants it seems, because one minute he can be cold and distant and then the next, we’ll hug eachother, and everything feels just right.
Its so much easier to just fall into a pattern, rather than moving on. And although you have moved on it doesn’t seem like you’re over your ex. Maybe if you had some single, alone time, you might be able to clear your thoughts.
All the best.
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I hate my life. Im super nice to everyone all the time. I bend over backwards for anybody is they need it. Im always a shoulder to fucking cry on to any sobby bitches. Does anyone consider me a friend? No. Do I ever get a call whenever anything is going or people are hanging […]
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Hello, my friend. You and I share lives, more or less. It’s an awful feeling, but I hope you trust me when I say that it does get better. In small amounts, it will. And those amounts will build up. And one day you will wake up and realize, “…I feel great today. I’ve felt great all week.”
I know that you’ll feel it soon, I just know it.
“Never make someone a priority when they only make you an option” a great quote from some dickhead i dont give two fucks who name is. if you want to be thin go and work to be thin, i know its hard to just mentally do it but after a few days it helps. once you can say fuck everybody, only then will people really want to be with you. its strange but so are people, they always want what they cannot have.
I met someone and fell in love with him, but now we live in different countries and since we were apart, we grew apart. He ended this a few days ago and since then I felt empty, sad, sorrowful and numb. I just wish I was with him, wish I hadn’t invested so much in […]
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That’s it. It’s over. After one hell of a year and two months, you finally left me. I can’t really believe it. I don’t want to. I’m such a fucking idiot for the things i’ve done. I’m such a self centred dick for the things i’ve thought. I’m such a insensitive cunt for the things […]
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I can’t really say anything but, “I’m sorry”. I hope things get better.:)
*hug
“I memorise every word you say and I hold it closer to my heart than my lungs”-
“although there are more fish in the sea. I’ll never find quite a rare beauty like you”
Man that’s beautiful! I sure hope you get your second chance- otherwise she’s the loser!
You’re 15! Hell, as a romantic by the time you’re 18 you’ll be unstoppable!
and your PS hits the nail right square on the head.
good luck brother
I think you are wrong in your PS. I don’t think they manage it at all, they are probably shut off to emotions because emotions can be scary and uncontollable sometimes.
I know how you feel. I am only 18, I was with someone from when i was 16 until a couple of months ago. Age makes no difference, don’t let anyone tell you that it does. I love him with all my heart. We never fought, until the last couple of months. Because I was so afraid that it was to good to be true, I was insecure and defensive. He left and said he was unhappy, later I found out that wasnt the reason. But my point is.. If you know you love this person with all of your heart and every drop of your soul, if you love them more than anyone in the universe, then don’t give up. If the love is as true as it sounds, she will realize that you’re wonderful. Some people are just meant to be together, no matter how many times they try to tear themselves apart. I’m still waiting. It hurts, but I know some how some way I’ll get another chance. I hope you do too. I’ll pray for you, whether you believe in God or not, that you find your happiness again. To be happy and in love is unequaled by every other emotion combined. Its bliss, and everyone deserves it. Good luck.
kiwi, I hope you are wrong, but y’know what, i think you’re right.
I’ve tried for a second chance, i mean i’ve really tried. I’ve begged, and begged, to the point just before she starts to think i’m going to become an obsessed psycho killer ex-boyfriend. She won’t. It’s okay though. I don’t deserve one. I treated her like shit, so i shouldn’t have another. She doesn’t love me, so it’s okay that i won’t. She never has. So it’s good. She can find someone she does love now, who won’t treat her like he’s paid for her. Who she can spend time with, share love and laughter with, hug, kiss, and argue with. I just wish that person was me.
heavymetalcows22, I do love her more than anything in the universe, but that’s why i am giving up. Letting a bird out of a cage to be free kind of thing. I feel for you though, cause it seems as if we’re in a similar situation, the difference lies in that I know she is better off without me. By the sounds of things, you two are perfect for each other, and you’re perfectly right. Keep going, keep trying.
But me, i deserve not to be prayed for. I deserve not to be felt for, and with L, i don’t deserve unequaled happiness. Unfortunately, i wouldn’t have it with anyone else.
Oh, and joei, There is no winner in love. It is not a game as much as it may seem like it. It’s the most serious thing in the world. People have killed for it, people have died for it. People still do. Although there is no winner although it is no game, there will always be a loser, and on this occasion, it is me, not her. And now i seem like a patronizing idiot, talking to someone older than him like he has no idea on what love is. I should shut up. My apologies.
Better move on .
I feel bad because I come on sites like this, and I could never have problems as bad as them, and it feels like I do until I read it. Then I just feel like shit again.
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i feel exactly the same
x
me too
There is never any point in comparing heartaches. Everyone has problems. But it doesn’t do anyone any good to dismiss their own problems on the bases that other people have worse problems. Chances are good that someone somewhere in the world has problems worse than the people you are comparing yourself to now. That doesn’t change the weight of what they are dealing with, does it? Sometimes you just have to allow yourself to feel what you feel by your own standards. Believe me, you do have the right to hurt, and you are worthy of reaching out for help if you need to.
quiteabitch 8:00 pm on June 9, 2011 Permalink | Log in to Reply
Ok. So, I don’t know if this will work or if I have any say at this, but as I read your confession only one person appeared in my head.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4zmBgEwFcWM&feature=related
“My faggot father must have had his pantie’s up in a bunch, cause he split, I wonder if he even kissed me goodbye(…) I look at Hailie and I couldn’t picture leavin’ her side, even if I hated Kim, I grit my teeth and I’d try, to make it work with her at least for Hailie’s sake, I maybe made some mistakes but i’m only human, but i’m man enough to face them today…”
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WYlp5EjU7uo&feature=related
What I mean is, a relationship with another person who isn’t your real family (like your wife) may end in the worst conditions; but it seems to be different when you have a child who, according to some people are the thing that a parent loves the most in its life. Don’t let whatever parent who hurt you when you were a kid hurt you even more by leaving a memory that forbids you to be happy. I know that it’s a lot easier said than done, but I believe that you should at least consider and trying to have a family.
quiteabitch 2:42 pm on June 10, 2011 Permalink | Log in to Reply
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4zmBgEwFcWM
“My faggot father must have had his pantie’s up in a bunch, cause he split, I wonder if he even kissed me goodbye(…)I look at Hailie and I couldn’t picture leavin’ her side, even if I hated Kim, I grit my teeth and I’d try, to make it work with her at least for Hailie’s sake, I maybe made some mistakes but i’m only human, but i’m man enough to face them today”
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QZUZ7Q7x61w&feature=related
You can’t let your past infect your future with hate. Maybe all the pain you felt is just another reason to love your child no matter what and make sure they don’t repeat your story. Don’t let them hurt you and forbid happiness for you more than they already have.