Meeting him again and discovering who he was and going down memory lane because of it has caused me to yearn for what we might have had but is now not attainable. I finally have it figured out… I think. I think this would be a normal for anybody that finds themselves in this situation […]
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mojonano
I am one of the most shallow guys I know. I wasn’t always like this. I’ve been with really hot girls and I’ve been with fatties who aren’t so good looking, and they both act the same way. They’re self-centered, snobby, demanding bitches. So I’m only going to fuck hot women from now on. I’m […]
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TheINTJ
I’m in love with a girl I met online a few months ago. She knows I’m in love with her. She’s three years older than I and treats me like a child because of it. It feels so degrading when she does. She asks me to do a lot for her and asks me to […]
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mojonano
Hypocrite
I talk about respecting the soldiers and monogamy as a virtue. I’m homeless and once chased a creepy guy away from this girl who was visiting from out of town. The next day, I hung out with her for awhile, talked about her husband in afghanistan, then fucked her in her hotel’s public bathroom.
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codedarmes
so you’re homeless but can use a computer…….. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!FUCKING AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!♂▬
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mojonano
It isn’t hard to go the library, retard.
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RandomGuy
I think I am attracted to All Time Shannon. I bet she’s cute and funny too. Don’t get all freaked out. I’m not the stalker type.
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I think she will be flattered
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All Time Shannon
Haha, awh thanks so much ^^;
- Shannon, x
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RandomGuy
OMG. I didn’t know you were 14. I’m sorry. I was trying to be silly and nice, but not creepy. I just read some of your confessions. I didn’t know you were a youngster. lol. But, some of your confessions were a bit sad. Don’t get all wrapped up in a boy at your age. And certainly, self harm is not a good thing. People will always fail you. As sad as it is, even those with the best intentions will fall short from time to time. The only person you can always trust is God.
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All Time Shannon
I’ve lost faith in god.
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RandomGuy
I’m sorry to hear that. Really. All too often we see difficulties in life as a sign that God hates us or that there is no God. It is usually because we put too much faith in people.
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forget then
How does age factor into this?
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All Time Shannon
I’m not sure :/
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AsKnownAs.
Clearly, he was attracted to you but musn’t be a teen, around your age, anymore!
Not to worry, plenty of fish in the sea, RandomGuy!
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rivergirl
Dear Reader, What’s YOUR reason to live? I need to find mine.
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vivaldee
I live for other people. I love people so much and I enjoy doing whatever I can possibly do to make their lives even a little bit better. When I help someone, what I want doesn’t matter. The feeling that someone’s life is better by the power of Christ working through me is all that matters.
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unknown
my reason to live is that there is too much to see before i die, to many things i want to do. and i at least want to feel love before i do. i wanna do all sorts of shit, travel see people make friends everywhere i can.
Rivergirl, can you not imagine doing any of these things?
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rivergirl
I suppose I can, but it’s all a matter of “how”. That’s when things get messy. I don’t know what should be put first - happiness or assurance.
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secondchancesx3
im not fully aware of my reason. although, i know i want to be with kids when im older. i want to have my own, and i want to help the lives of others. either be a teacher, special ed teacher, i would love to do research on kids with mental illnesses. id love to help child i can, anyway possible. they are my passion. thats for the future.
i also know i am alive right now for everyone that is in my life. for anyone who loves me. for anyone that cares about me. i know i stay alive for them. because i know if some of those people werent alive for me, i dont know what i would do.
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CrimsonTears
I wish I knew… I have spent 23 years living for others, but, after a while it gets tiring. It’s so hard to live for others because when I’m alone, I have no one and want to die. I have spiraled so deep into my eating disorder and self injury, i fear that if I try to live for myself, i’ll be dead in a day. I keep living out of guilt for the pain I would cause others if I left, unfortunately, the pain they would suffer collectively is carried by me every day.
That being said, I sincerely hope you find yours, and I will keep looking for mine.
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hugsalot
I need to find mine as well. I’m at a place in my life at the moment where I should be focused and I should have a clear idea in mind about what I want to do, but I’ve never felt more lost. I know some people my age that are now married or have just finished university degrees and what have I done? pretty much nothing. I’ve never felt comfortable enough to admit that in real life because I feel that no one that I personally know will understand.
It’s weird because I honestly don’t think I have a calling in life. I just take each day as it comes and I try to enjoy it. I like spending time with those few friends that I have and I also like doing things (shopping,movies,gigs etc) on my own. I probably sound like some loner chick and I guess you can say I am. I guess I’m just used to doing things by myself and keeping to myself so much it’s become “normal”.
Sorry for blabbing on so much. I hope you and everyone else above can figure their stuff out.
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disappearingink
At the moment I don’t know but I find myself living to learn about the world and people, which may sound dumb, I suppose. But honestly I enjoy it and its probably the only thing I’m good at. I think about everything I look at people and analyze their body language and faces and you just learn so much about people its great. I think a lot about everything and the infinite possibilities of life.
Its bad though because I despise school because its a bland box of nothingness. And the knowledge you gain there ultimately amounts to nothing.
Sorry for rambling. But I hope you find your way soon.
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purpletears
i don’t have on
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Dreamboat Annie
I’m starting to wonder if I can do anything right. I’ll bet I’m not even confessing right. Mostly I just use this sight to talk about my stupidly hectic yet still nonexistent love life, because I don’t ever tell people about my problems except my family (sometimes), but then they get annoyed when I talk […]
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ExxNyvalia
Go for it.
Just tell him how you feel and go from there. You two sound extremely compatible.
Making someone smile is always a good goal.
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LaVidaLoca
this.
It used to be a big part of our lives and we gave it up and why the FUCK did he not tell me he’s back on it now, and according to M, he’s been back to it for weeks. And he’s always on about how it’s ME that keeps shit from him and how HE […]
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Kait
not forgivin, want to be forgoten
i used to check his facebook everyday see if he responded to my message, or posted something about something i said. i would figure out where he was going to be and figure out how to nonchalantly make myself there too. major crush…but he was leaving, so i had to settle for friendship. he left […]
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joei
people like this don’t care. it’s not easy, but forget him little by little. you’re too good to let the memory of his actions rule the rest of your life
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yarsaf
though I can’t fault him for not returning your feelings, the dude is a douche for betraying ur trust
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crazyBEAUTIFUL
You disgusting cradle-robbing, child-molesting cougar. You don’t know who I am, but I know who you are and most importantly, I know what you did. I wish I could meet you one day and confront you about your child molesting ways. I would tell you that it’s NOT OKAY to seduce little teenage boys. I […]
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HUGS. to see someone hurt someone you care deeply about it awful. you’ve got a stranger’s (my) support. just vent all your rage out on grouphuglive, and then when your mind’s cleared a bit, maybe you’ll know whether or not you should act. hugs.
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joei
right on!!!
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CheeryPie
I have never regretted losing my virginity to you until that day, over a year ago, when you told me you lost it to someone else. I still think about it everyday and it makes me fucking sick to my stomach. You really had me thinking we were each other’s firsts. I still can’t believe […]
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Remixer
I can completely empathize.
It’s a completely dreadful feeling, no matter whether you’re a male or female.
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im so sorry this happened to you
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simplicity_in_socorro
I know how you feel, just found out my special someone lost her virginity when she was 13 and has done it with 2 different guys and has been lying to me for a few months now
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crazyBEAUTIFUL
I love my boyfriend. He’s perfect. We’ve been together for almost three years. But there are certain things about his past that I just can’t get over. I know its the past and that he’s supposedly ‘changed’. But what if he hasn’t? I always feel like he may be hiding some things from me. Or […]
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love needs 2 way trust. forget him
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Ambriel 5:09 am on February 8, 2010 Permalink | Log in to Reply
I think you need to see a psychiatrist, mate, and then a psychotherapist if possible. They may be able to give you tools that will help stabilize that roller coaster. If you’ve been already and had no progress, try someone else, maybe from a different approach. Throw everything you’ve got at it before you give up completely. If you can’t afford doctors, see if you can at least find a support group in your area, those are free and you don’t have to talk if you don’t want to.
You have identified that you think something is wrong with you - that’s the first step. The next step is deciding whether you are willing to work to fix what is broken. That’s not an overnight process, it’s a gradual metamorphosis. Something is holding you back from suicide, which says to me that it isn’t truly what you want for yourself, deep down.
You want to be loved and cared for - that’s normal, and definitely tough when you feel so alone. But people can’t love you properly if you don’t reach out to them, if they don’t know you, if you don’t tell them what you are feeling or thinking. You may not have the tools to do that yet, so go get them! It’s hard work, but when the reward is love, isn’t that worthwhile? (Corny, I know, sorry.)
Good luck, mate. I have been in that big dark abyss and know it isn’t much fun. I’ve also lost people to it, and that wasn’t much fun either.
TheINTJ 10:32 pm on February 8, 2010 Permalink | Log in to Reply
Thanks for the reply, Ambriel. I have considered going to see a psychiatrist/psychotherapist, but in order to do that I would actually have to tell my mother about things I am no where near ready to explain, nor do I want to have to tell any other family member. If I could go see one alone and not have to give any reasons as to why I want to see one, I would certainly have already tried to go. Hopefully someday I’ll be able to find a way to get to one without having to explain my situation to family.. I’d much rather keep it private.
Ambriel 5:40 am on February 8, 2010 Permalink | Log in to Reply
What you added is something I can relate to a little bit - the worst relationships I have ever had were the one I got into when I was the most vulnerable. Which is another reason you need to fix whatever is going wrong for you. People will use you and make the problem worse. This girl sounds like a user and the simple fact of the matter is that you are smarter than this, you deserve better and can do better. Once the part of you that knows that has woken up, it will be easier to move on and nigh impossible for her to drag you back.
pd0815 5:59 am on February 8, 2010 Permalink | Log in to Reply
what’s going on here is she might be scared of getting in trouble for being a child molester. maybe when you’re eighteen she will open up and not run away. but then she will be 21 and the next phase for her sets in… oh yea. then again she seems to be quite open talking to you about about her past experiences. If she didn’t talk about them, you would always be wondering about them. I think if you didn’t choose to be such a loner you wouldn’t have these problems with such everyday things to deal with.
TheINTJ 10:26 pm on February 8, 2010 Permalink | Log in to Reply
I do not believe you could be called a “child molester” for just having feelings for someone three years younger than yourself, especially if there is no sexual things going on between us. She has mentioned that she “wishes I was 18” a couple of times before, but if she’s going to wait until I’m eighteen to tell me something, then that’s pretty pathetic. I agree with the loner bit as choosing this path and sticking to it only helped me to be even more so socially inept. Thanks for the reply.