I’m tired I want to sleep I need…
I’m tired. I want to sleep. I need to sleep. Even if I never wake up again
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psyk3d
i want to commit suicide but dont have the courage to! tomorrow is my 20th birthday! and i dont wanna live past it! 20 years of torment! pain, loneliness, guilt! sudden burst of tears! voices! i cant take it anymore! i havent slept in peace ever since i first opened my eyes! im sleepy now. […]
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quiteabitch
What makes you feel this way so wrong?
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cpop
I want to kill myself. I have wanted to kill myself for as long as I could remember. I attempted suicide when I was 17 and my mother came in to talk to me about God and how if you do bad things doesn’t mean you’re a bad person and that God always forgives, then […]
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yellowroses
maybe you need to talk to someone, like a therapist. it’s horrible letting people know you go to therapy, but maybe that’s the best for your safety. it’s good that you love your family, hold on to that.
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Ineedahug.
My little brother killed himself 3 years ago. I still have a really hard time dealing with it, but can’t bring myself to talk to anyone else about it. I can’t afford a therapist, and I don’t see any reason why I should burden anyone else with my problems and negative feelings. But truth be […]
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SlowlyRising
I would gladly give you a hug if I could. Being able to tell other people about your problems isn’t burdening, it’s a sign you trust and care about them. Talk to someone in person.
You need to stop thinking about suicide. I don’t think it’s what you really want, and more importantly, I don’t think it’s what your brother would want.
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quiteabitch
HUUUGSGGSSSSS!!
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La
I’m sorry. Hugs
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nothing but me
If I could I would hug you till your bones crack
Love
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alwaysxx
This is my 10th year of being so depressed that I think about death. I know there are people out there who are worse off but the shit that has happened to me is still big. It’s gotten to much now, I can’t deal with my father hitting me again or telling me i am […]
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pd0815
If you need to talk about the rape, I will listen. It seems to be under your skin and in the back door to every decision you make
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levibluejn
its funny
I’m a paramedic i help people, on the rare occasion i save people from the brink of death..but almost all i can think about and pray about is that I die. there hasn’t been a night in months that i haven’t prayed not to wake up. or a shift where i haven’t prayed to get […]
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AnnaBx263
You cannot control your feelings but you can control your action. There is always someone there who will help you through…
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zack
and because I have no where else to say it- I didn’t attempt suicide just once last year. It was three times. Next time it’ll really count.
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yellowroses
i have no idea what to say, except please don’t. all i can do is beg for you not to. i admit, i probably am NO help, but please know that you really can have a great future ahead if you’re willing to hang in there.
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dyminism
do it if its what you really want. just make you’re sure.
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codedarmes
so how did u commit suicide 3 times? IT ONLY TAKES ONCE. u must even suck at commuting suicide
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lolarunsfast
don’t do it. I’m with yellowroses on this, if you stick it out, things will change. Life has its ups and downs, but you’ll never get to experience those highs if you end it now. The low points hurt like hell, but things will change.
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bjg
i hate myself
i am fourteen and i am fat and hairy. i know that i will never get a boyfriend. i am anxious all the time. all the fucking time. i can’t leave my house. i hate my life. i have headaches all the time. everybody is partying and once again i am home alone eating and […]
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yellowroses
please don’t…you’re probably not fat or hairy. there’s always losing weight & shaving if you are. i’m sure you have reason to live. you’re sad, but there’s still happiness ahead for you.
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cibllmrd
You are only 14….give yourself time to grow up. Things change and I felt similar to you once upon a time. You can change your appearance.
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quiteabitch
I agree with yellowroses. Couldntve said it better myself.
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whyme3
when i walk in class i feel the exact same way. Everyone hates me even the teachers, and most of my old friends ditched me when they found out i wasnt as cool as some people. i wanted 2 kill myself or run away to las vegas with my dad, and i almost did, but i either knew it would hurt me or I’d be too scared to do it. I know what ur talkin about nd where ur comin from. Ive been about 50-100 poundsd overweight since kindergarten, and now in 13 nd da 7th grade 210 lbs. as for the hairy part, for me at school, one day i blew up and tryd 2 tell a boy off, and i might have said i was bi but im definately not. now they stalk me nd call me to tell me that. as for the boy friend part, so far ive only had 3, and eaach one lied nd cheated on me. apparently, they didnt want ppl to kno we went out, so b lucky yu havent had 1. go 4 da 1 dat likes yu 4 yu nd likes the activities yu do, not a flirt who jus wants anybody. im always scared somebody is gonna make fun of my body even more rthan usual, so all through the year, i wear a jacket to hide behind. i hope yu feel better knoing deres ppl out here that feel ur pain.
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questionmark
*sigh* High School. There’s nothing quite like it is there? Listen up, you are at a tough age. I know you’ve heard this before, but there are biological reasons for your frustration.
You are at the self discovery age, hormones are coursing through your veins, you feel the need to bond, to mate, to be accepted. At this age it is a pack mentality. Things are growing, body hair, boobs, other things we shall not mention here.
See here’s the thing. I was in the same boat you were almost a decade ago. I was TALL I do mean tall 6 foot by the age of 13. I didn’t grow boobs until I was 16, much less have a period. I got called names, “Jolly Green Giant”, “goony bird”, etc etc.
Now looking back I’m grateful. Do you know why?
Take a look at the people around you. LOOK at them through your eyes, don’t think of them in the way you are supposed too. Don’t classify them as the jock, the slut, the cheerleader, the bandnerd. Just LOOK at them objectively. Age them up about 10 or 20 years.
NOW tell me, is that really someone you envision yourself with in the future. Do you REALLY want to share genetic material with the specimens you see around you?
I’m willing to bet that you are going to have to reply with a resounding NO to most of the people you see in your classes and at school.
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lolarunsfast
When I was 14 I was awkward and hairy too. High school sucks. I used to wish for a boyfriend everyday, some guy who would show interest in me. My friends all got boyfriends, and they were annoying to be around, and that made the situation even more depressing. I was sure that I would never get a boyfriend either.
Besides, the ones that party at 14 get pregnant before they’re 20. Stay at home and enjoy food. Watch some TV, do your school work. And then, after the hellish purgatory that is high school passes, get the fuck out of that place. Meet new people. New friends will build up your self esteem.
I’m still pretty awkward and hairy, but I’ve come to be happy with myself. Don’t you want to be around to watch as the “hot” people slowly fade in attractiveness as you mature and become more and more beautiful? And don’t you want to be around to experience the joy of a first boyfriend and a first kiss? It’s worth it, it will happen eventually.
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yellowroses
i hate this. i want people to care, but i hate people telling me the wise thing to do. for once, just emphasize & shut the fuck up. people can be violatile. read the post with “i’m bring back the memories…” before you judge. if that still doesn’t make you understand, then you don’t have […]
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Cavalary
*hugs*
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broken
all i can say about you is that you dont really want to die you have way too much emotion and you just want to be loved you want to be noticed. be patient. it will come. there are people who love you now. my friend was murdered and i cant figure out why god didnt take people like you who “want to die” instead of an 18yo boy who charged at life head on. i have his old house and i have his old bedroom. Whenever i sleep in there i dream about him. I wake up sobbing. when i sleep somewhere else i dont dream about him. only when i sleep in there. i write about him. i look at people and i see him. when i look at them a second time, they are a completely different face and person. i feel him lay next to me at night. i see him walk through my house during the day. i talk to him whenever i am alone. i drew a portrait of him on my wall. my life revolves around him. i see people write things on the internet saying i want to kill myself and i want to get hit by a drunk driver to teach a drunken family member a lesson and all i want to say to them is fuck you! if you want to put someone in this much fucking pain you can fucking go to hell you bastard.if you really want that to happen grow some balls and jump in front of the car instead of wasting our time loving you. because people DO love you
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yellowroses
i keep bringing back the memories, pictures, photos, anything…i pick at my scars until i feel again….because that’s the only way i know that i love you. part of me doesn’t want you in pain, because i loved you for your smile, but part of me wants you to cry for me, just to hurt […]
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yellowroses
i wish they’d all hate me, so the pain will be less when i snap & kill myself. sometimes, i quietly chant “you can make it. what about your dreams? what about tom?” when i feel & remember the summer of 2008, i want to breakdown, because i’ve suffered a lot for you. people can […]
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Chiron
Some people will “care” to hurt you and degrade you and undermine what you could be. Other’s will care to help you.
No man is an island but you shouldnt let anyone define who you are.
If you’re in bad company do what ever is needed to get away. They will drag you down into the quicksand with them. Some people are only happy fi others are unhappy
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Chiron
I guarantee you can trust this equation: If the one you love, the one you want to give your life for is your first love or a love in high shcool then take a few deep breaths and see how it plays out….
there is so much more in this world that is unfathomable to those who are blinded by love-
darkness shrouded by light
dreaming is your subconciouse mind telling you past, present thoughts. it could mean you are still attache to the person, or it could mean that you are simply letting go. it may sound starnge but thats the truth of it.think about the emotion, his face, things like that. and it might help you to better understand.
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yellowroses
i got it figured out if it doesn’t work out. 1. make video to you & burn it onto disk 2. make a video to the world on youtube & mention the disk 3. pills 4. take a long ride on the 7 & switch to the 4. then fall asleep. hope i die. i hope there’s […]
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SolomonTummler
Why? What would be the point of killing yourself?
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yellowroses
plans.
ive got the plans & evrythin. i jst need that 1 decision to let me shine bright or call it quits. hey, i’ve had time to plan all of it out. ive been this way since i was 12. i must have wrote over 50 suicide notes. i still don’t know what to write. hm. […]
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SolomonTummler
To be honest, what you’re doing is quite childish and selfish. You’re only 14, you’ve got your whole life ahead of you. Stop dwelling on this one guy and think about the future. You’ve got more than enough time to do better than this.
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yellowroses
i never really understood dying for a cause. today, i realized that that’s what i’ve been doing. i’ve been using my body as my own human protest. all those scars, all those suicide notes, all those tears, i’m protesting having to move on. i’m protesting acceptance & letting go.
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yellowroses
unaware
its not that im unaware, its that i dont want to be aware. i dont need to think “im probably going to be dead” everyday. i rather think “1 day, i’ll heal.”
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yellowroses
sometimes, my dreams would seem so happy & the chase would look fun…but when the caffine wears off, i just want to cry from being emotionally exhausted, but i barely have any tears.
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yellowroses
memories.
i fear being a forgotten memory…but i fear being a living shadow even more.
i confess here because…i have no 1 else to talk to. no 1 to tell of my pain & anguish without having to put a smiley face at the end to soothe the tensions. i really don’t want to anymore. i’m emotionally exhausted from you, i’m stressed from school, & i can see my bra size plunging down while my belly is a loathesome reminder of my incapability to reach my goals. then there are rants aimed at comforting my inner self, “he doesn’t care about bra size…” while i know you do. i know i do.
you don’t love someone out of pity, but when i have done so much & been hurt so many times, i look to the rest of the world since i hold no faith in the church/temple, for an easier way out. honestly, should you give a fuck about a stupid 14 year old girl? probably not. will you? maybe. will the media? yes.
i remember the summer of ‘08 when i probably wrote 50+ suicide notes. the stupid girl even wrote letters to the media, begging for them not to blame you. i remember those nights crying, weeping out of desperation. staring at your pictures, blaming cruel fate for setting us so far apart. sometimes i still wonder, maybe we can’t be cinderella & prince charming, but what about snow white & the prince? even if snow white remained dead? how about romeo & juliet. how tragic is it, to die with your most beloved?
even if i was to commit suicide, we would still not make for a storybook ending, due to mere fact that you have not loved me & never will.
i am certain. i will die when hope is shattered. the day you engage in holy matrimony? the day you get down on 1 knee as i hear of you proposing to a lucky lady that isn’t me? maybe it will be simply the day she snaps out of frustration & hopelessness for the cruel world around her.
the stupid girl lies about you everyday. oh, she tells people of her dreams, but sprinkled with false hope & humor. sometimes i wonder, do they laugh because they see behind her veil of false hope or because they find the joke genuinely humorous.
i don’t want to start the inane war of grudgecounting, but every night, the stupid girl grits her soul & says “i will get him. because i deserve it.” her mind doesn’t argue with accomplishments or record contracts or # of auditions, it fights with the mL of tears, the # of scars, & the loss of hope.
consciously, she knows, you’ll succeed on proving her selfishness, but the arguement of whether she deserves your love is an open fighting ground, ready to be destroyed with words of hate & anger which forsake the spirit of love.
in the war, no one will truly appear victorious. she remains a broken puzzle that has never gotten close to her life’s dream & you remain the janitor that must sweep up the crap left behind. the media will not bring their scheduled reports to a halt….& the world shall only go on…no matter the thickness of your new barrier.
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yellowroses
the suicide deal.
either i get famous & get him. or i die. simple. the day he marries another girl, it’s over for me. my poor teenage life has been taken away by this dream of him…& yet, has been given a pt & hope. im up to over 50 paper stars. each 1 was a message to him. how many years before i’m dead? how many months? will i snap before he even marries? will he ever read my suicide notes? will he ever know that i cried everyday in the summer of ‘08? will he ever know that im not “emo?” that i was driven this way from love? will he ever know that i thought of him every night before i went to sleep in the psych ward? will he understand that it’s not his fault…? will he understand that i really did try? fame is hard to obtain…getting him is even harder…& no one understands. “celebrity obsession.” no…i would give up my life for him…so why….”ich wurde sterben fur dich…sterben fur dich…warum…”
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yellowroses
***, I’m just a 14 year old girl. I’m not superhuman, no matter how much I try to be for you. The hospital was stupid. They let me out. Of course I lied. Idiots. I could kill myself there anyways. Hang myself with the bedsheets, electrocute myself…I came out to try for you…Only for you. […]
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lifelost
Its good to see you’re ok. Stay strong. There isnt anything meaner than kids on this planet other than maybe a pack of rabid attacking jackles. If you need help go to http://www.twloha.com they helped me. Maybe they can help you. I’m honestly very releived you are alright. My friends and I were worried all night about you.
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bobburgster
Don’t know you, and wouldn’t try to impose my thoughts on you……just glad you’re okay.
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yellowroses
i’m such an idiot. people were supposed to slowly forget i was suicidal. but i gave my friend the link. i wonder, does depression make people stupid too.
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lcdoggy
Hahaha i think it does , im very stupid
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